After Dillon's bullshit excuse to not meet up with me a few weeks ago, I didn't think I'd hear from him again, but a couple days later we had a little talk about boyfriends. I told him I didn't know if I wanted one right now or not since it is (scary) new territory for me, and I admitted I was kinda afraid to meet him since I didn't know where it would lead. And he responded, "Yeah. I know. I do kinda miss a boyfriend, but I am kinda weird so I dunno if you'd even like me."
FYI: We have never even talked about liking each other, though he did say once that he had a crush on me. That's the second time he has floated the idea of us being boyfriends. I just want to be friends for now since I haven't even met him yet so he seems to be one step ahead.
Anyway, I told him he might now like me either (he doesn't know I have Bell's Palsy) and said we'd never find out until we actually meet lol. The next day he said he wanted to meet up that weekend (two weekends ago), but he got stuck being a Designated Driver for his brother. So then last week he said he wanted to meet up again that weekend (last weekend now). I jokingly said, "that's what you said last week," and he said, "this week I mean it." That was last monday, so fast forward to Friday. We were supposed to meet up but then he decided, more or less at the last minute, that we was going to hang out and spend the night at a girl friend's house because he hasn't seen her in awhile. I let him know that I was disappointed and whatnot but I didn't get angry about it (something I've learned is not a good thing to do), and he apologized twice.
Other than that I haven't talked to him since then. I texted him last night but I think it was after his bedtime because he didn't respond. I thought he might have responded first thing this morning, but he didn't. I'm hoping he texts me after school. Since he first cancelled the "date" he planned a few weeks ago, we haven't been texting as much as we used to. He used to send me "good morning" texts and stuff but hasn't after what happened a few weeks ago, so I started sending them and we'd talk for a little bit in the morning before he went off to school. I haven't been awake in the early morning lately to send them to him.
All through this he calls me "hunny" and "babe" which is kinda weird I think. Maybe that's because they're tradition pet names for girls :P
Anyway, since we're talking less and less I think this will all eventually fizzle out. Which is what usually happens...
I gotta run to my last class of the day, and then go home and make beer bread for tomorrow.
Later, gators.
