Summer Is Here. Yay?

I'm done with school for the next 3 months :D

So... Now what?

I don't know.


Alex brought up camping a few times the last time I saw him. So I guess we can start planning that out.

I probably won't talk to him on Sunday since I'll be pretty tied up with my whole family being around and all.

The majority of my Summer is gonna be spent in boredom I'm sure. There aren't any places hiring anywhere near here. I lost the trailer, so that means no lawn mowing business -_-

I guess I'll have more time to focus on my other blogs now. Though I am thinking about deleting my Civil War blog. I'm not really into that very much anymore. I'll probably also work on my 3D models. I haven't touched them in a long time. I'll post some pics if you're interested.

*crickets chirp*

Tumble weed rolls by*

Okay...

Guess you're not.


I'll also be online more now that school is done. Although, I may have to do Summer School because somehow I'm missing an English credit. I can take one full English course, and two electives in English next year. That will give me two credits in English. That'll be enough to graduate.


Dunno what else to talk about right now.

So...


OMG

I keep having these dreams. They all take place inside the tent while Alex and I are camping out. They're all sexual in nature for the most part. But they always end with us falling asleep in each other's arms, and they just have this love feeling to them

*warm, fuzzy feeling*

Maybe they're telling me I need jump on camping plans :p


Okay, that's all for now.

Oh no. One more thing:

Alex also sounded interested in seeing Valkyrie. So maybe there's an oppurtunity for a sleepover there? IDK

Going Into More Detail...

On the last post, J asked why I live with Dad rather than Mom, and why am I cyber schooled.

I've given part of the answer to those before, but now I guess I'll go into more detail about it all.

A couple years ago, Dad had health problems relating to his heart and all that stuff. I don't pretend to understand all that stuff so I can't really give you any more info about it. Besides that all happened before I came on the scene anyway.

My brother who was currently still living with Dad at the time was getting ready to move out when all this happened. Dad became very concerned about living alone with these health problems. He is home 90% of the time since he doesn't really have to go anywhere for his job. He is also getting up there in his age (mid 60s). My brother decided to stay instead of moving out. That temporally solved the issue.

That summer (2007), I spent practically the whole time at Dad's (this was before he had his health probs). This was mainly because I was seeing Alex all the time. Whenever I had to leave and go back home (this was before I lived here remember), he would always ask when I was coming back. I already liked Alex since way before this time. But it was this summer that the feelings started getting a whole lot stronger. So much so that I was visiting Dad's a whole lot more than normal.

When school started, I went back to Dad's every holiday break. Even the little three day weekends. It was Christmas/New Years break (2007/08) that changed everything for me. It was the longest break of the school year, and the longest time I was able to do things with Alex since summer.

When it came time to go back home whenever break was about over, I didn't want to. I even started to cry. Now I hardly ever get emotional, so if I cry then you know something is seriously wrong.

These were my reasons for coming back here:

1. I never did anything with any of my friends outside of school. I went to a few birthday parties, but that was pretty much it as far as I can remember. I never saw any of them during the summer or anything like that.

2. I was also alone on the weekends and whenever there was a break that I didn't go to Dad's.

So I pretty much just sat at home in front of the TV most of the time.

3. I like where I live better. It's a nicer community, I have more contact with people here than I did before.

4. My brother was working 12 hour shifts so he wasn't with Dad much. I guess this reason is just an excuse that presented it self at the time and I took advantage of it. It was a viable reason then, but I guess I just used it (and still do) to hide probably the number one reason I came back here.

5. Alex is here. I had strong enough feeling for Alex that I decided to move back here for him.

When you look at it, I guess it was the worst decision I could have made. I had 76 people I considered a friend in my grade alone where I used to live. I dropped them all for 1.

Wow

I should become a case study of how love blinds you and makes you do stupid things.

Anyway, this is getting off the original topic of this post I think.

After I moved back with Dad, Mom also moved back to our city. So right now, there is no point to living with her rather than Dad because I'd still be here.


The other question (if you've forgotten) was why I'm cyber schooled.

This post is getting a bit long, so I'll just give you the short answer. It was something I wanted to try because there were more cons than pros about going back to the local school. Plus with my school, I get a lot more class options than with a regular "brick and mortar" school.

For instance, I have a lot of 3D design courses available to me. If you know me, than you know I love that stuff. So that is a huge advantage to me. There are also a lot of clubs available, as well as other things that a normal school can't offer for whatever reason.

When Mom looked at the cyber school and compared it to other cyber schools as well as the local school, she agreed that it was the best choice. Usually you don't get teachers who agree with cyber schools. She does.


So there's my answers.

This was kinda hard for me to write. A lot of things to think about for me. Lots of emotion too.

From my POV anyway.

Hope this wasn't too long. Apparently Bob doesn't like long posts :p

He loves me!

No he didn't actually tell me he does. BUT! He sent me this forwarded email he got from his mom. There are supposed to be pics, but I can't get them to show up on here. :\

A friend sent this to me.... It's been said that God first separated the salt water from the fresh, made dry land, planted a garden, made animals and fish... All before making a human. He made and provided what we'd need before we were born. These are best & more powerful when eaten raw. We're such slow learners.... God left us a great clue as to what foods help what part of our body! God's Pharmacy! Amazing! A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye. The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye... And YES, science now shows carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes. A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart has four chambers and is red. All of the research shows tomatoes are loaded with lycopine and are indeed pure heart and blood food. Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food. A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds on the nut are just like the neo-cortex. We now know walnuts help develop more than three (3) dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function. Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys. Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and many more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet, the body pulls it from the bones, thus making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body. Avocados, Eggplant and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats one avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight, and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this? It takes exactly nine (9) months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them). Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the mobility of male sperm and increase the numbers of Sperm as well to overcome male sterility. Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics. Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries Oranges, Grapefruits, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts. Onions look like the body's cells. Today's research shows onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells. They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes. A working companion, Garlic, also helps eliminate waste materials and dangerous free radicals from the body. Please don't break this even if you only send it to one person. Look at the date when this was started. Thanks NOTICE AT THE END, THE DATE THE CANDLE WAS STARTED. GONNA GIVE YOU GOOSE BUMPS. I am not going to be the one who Lets it die. I found it believable --- This candle was lit on the 15th of September, 1998. Someone who loves you has helped keep it alive by sending it to you. Don't let The Candle of Love, Hope And Friendship die! Pass It On To All Of Your Friends and Everyone You Love!

Okay so is says to pass it on to one of your friends and everyone you love right?

Well guess what.

I am the only person he sent it to!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Yeah, it probably doesn't really mean anything,and I'm probably reading WAAAAYY too much into it.

And yes, I'm sure I'm the only person because there isn't any other person listed. Usually it says:

From: Alex

To: Peter, Annoying Friend, Not-So-Annoying-Friend, etc.

And I don't think he knows about blind carbon copying or whatever its called. Besides, why would he do that with this email when he never does it with any other ones? lol

Oh and sorry about the funky font and colors. That is how it is in the email. :\

Oh...again... I was going to reply to it saying, "Are you telling me I need to change my diet?"

lol

3D Model - New Version

New Version:






Titanic model which I've just restarted on.

Once I get all the identical parts built onto one model, I will copy the original into two other models and create all three Olympic Class Liners (Olympic, Titanic, and Britannic).



The Poseidon model is almost my own creation. Except for the basic design of the ship and the name of course. It is not 100% identical to the ship in the movie. I have had to use my "artist license" on this model.

The Titanic model is drawn completely from blueprints and other plans.

Mixed Emotions

First of all I guess I should highlight what happened at youth club.

Well actually around 4 p.m. today, I went over to Alex's house. It was purely a "business" visit LOL. I had to take a check over for his mom from the church's treasurer. He didn't invite me to stay though. I was left standing in the cold. :(

Okay now for youth club:

The first thing that happens there is the kids play games. Alex and I usually don't participate in them since we are the oldest ones there, and too old to play the silly games they play. Alex and I sat at a table across from each other. We just BSed really.

Then during the class we sat together as usual. It seemed to me that we were a little closer than usual though. However, I think it was just me. I mean, Alex was right on the end of the pew.

At one point during the class he had his left arm (the one closest to me) up on the back of the pew. It's hard to explain unless you know what they look like, but if I had been sitting right next to him then his arm would be around me.

Dad turned his back to look something up in his book. Alex then proceeded to take his left index finger and ever so gently stick it in my ear a little bit.

WTF???

We talked together and laughed and all that until he had to leave. That was pretty much it for youth club

Okay, now on to the mixed emotions part of the post.

After everything that happened today and yesterday, I have that feeling inside me again. It's that warm and fuzzy feeling. I think my feelings for him are starting to come back after their long vacation since the end of summer. I think some of you will say that they never left. But what I'm trying to say is that they are starting to affect me again. I've been thinking about him all day (plus I had a dream about him last night), and I've had a big grin on my face all day today.

The problem is, I don't really want to love him again. I mean there are no indicators that he is defiantly gay/bi, or that he wants a relationship with me that extends beyond friendship. I don't want to go though another heart break period like what I've been going through since the end of summer.

Unfortunately there is really nothing I can do about my feelings I guess.