I'm pretty sure NG was the first one to realize that I didn't seem to have a good time during the last camping excursion. Well, yeah, he's right; I didn't really enjoy it...
So... I've decided not to do any more camping with Alex.
I guess this is a big sign of getting over him?
Yes, I'll probably miss the sexual stuff, but it's really not worth it if there is no feeling behind it. Even if it is just two friends wanking side-by-side, it's still hard if one of those friends has feelings for the other one, but the other one doesn't return those feelings.
So... yeah... No more camping.
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Last Night.
As you can tell from the last post, I was stewing over the idea of whether or not to go through with camping last night. I don't know why, but after dinner I just didn't have the ambition to do it, not to mention not really being that excited about it.
But, I was talking to Courage around 7 p.m. last night and he kinda convinced me to do it. So I went up to ask Dad if he wanted to put the tent up. He was working on stuff, so I went back down to talk online some more. Just then Alex sent me a text saying, "Did you put the tent up yet?" which of course I hadn't. I sent back, "Dad and I will do it eventually... keep your pants on." As you can tell, I was still not too ambitious about it all. Alex sends back, "Oh (or maybe it was 'ok')... I'm just bored so I thought I'd come and help."
Dad said that I could go out and start putting up the tent and he'd be along shortly. So I sent Alex a message telling him that I was going to get the tent started. Not even a minute later he sent back, "I'm here." lol. He must have been floating around outside.
The tent goes up. Alex stays an hour, then goes and gets changed. Play around on my computer for awhile: Texas Hold 'em, Facebook, trying to get him to talk to Courage online (which he wouldn't lol). Then he went on Jackinworld.com to "look for something to entertain" me. His words, except the "me" is me, not him... supposedly... :p
Then, it's like 11:30, he asks me about these two sites, porntube.com and youporn.com, I guess he wanted to know if they were real sites. I didn't know, so he typed them in :O Yep, they are real; straight porn mostly I think. So then he says, "Know any better sites?" :O I don't really want to go to a gay porn site with him around. I don't know why, but it's just embarrassing :\ So I type in xtube.com, which really isn't that good of a site, but it has both straight and gay porn on it. He selected the straight part of the site. He watched a couple vids. Ick, straight porn.... gag me with a spoon. But he didn't touch himself or anything while he was watching... Isn't that what you're supposed to do?
I guess he got bored with the porn cos after two or three vids he gave the computer back to me. I didn't want to go to any of my usual sites, as I've already said. It'd be different if I knew he was gay, but I thought it might gross him out of something. So anyway, the computer got put away.
I'm under my cover and he's just laying beside me. I figured it was time to jack off, so I was trying to get a boner under the blanket. He says, "I thought you didn't like to do it under covers?" which I don't. Right then I realize that everytime we do this he always comments on how I start out trying to get a boner under the cover (I don't want to pull out my flaccid dick, just my hard one :p)... Then I decide to play with him (not "that" way :p). I still don't have a boner yet, but I make the motions, still under the cover, as if I do and I'm going at it lol. Again, he comments on me doing it under the covers, but I still act as if I'm going at it. Then I go under the cover completely; he's like, "What are you doing?"
I say, "What do you think?"
"I don't know." So now he's playing dumb. I think he's trying to get my to come out of from under the covers. Then I say, "Wow, it's really hot under here" lol. He says, "So take the cover off" if we were chatting online I'm sure he would have added a "ffs" to the end lol. I could tell he's getting really annoyed cos I'm doing it under the cover and not where he can see.... at least that's what I think.
Okay, so I think I've tortured him enough so I come out, and we jack off. Just like the last time, I had a hard time "going the all the way" (i.e. coming). I don't know what it is, but I kept going a bit soft even though I was going at it! Maybe I'm too used to porn :\ I comment on this when he asks (for the millionth time) if I'm close to coming yet. So he says, "Well, here's your video" and he rolls on his side so I can get a better view of his dick, but since there's not much light on him, it doesn't really help. Anyway, it ends up taking 45mins :O for us to finish. I guess he was waiting for me, but he ended first. That did it for me and I finished too. We cleaned up and went to sleep.
This morning, we were messing around on the computer again. Then we were just laying there, and he says, "Look what I found" and pulls out his hard dick :O Then five minutes later he says that he's gonna go home.
That's it.
Comments?
Thoughts?
Feelings?
Criticism?
etc...?
But, I was talking to Courage around 7 p.m. last night and he kinda convinced me to do it. So I went up to ask Dad if he wanted to put the tent up. He was working on stuff, so I went back down to talk online some more. Just then Alex sent me a text saying, "Did you put the tent up yet?" which of course I hadn't. I sent back, "Dad and I will do it eventually... keep your pants on." As you can tell, I was still not too ambitious about it all. Alex sends back, "Oh (or maybe it was 'ok')... I'm just bored so I thought I'd come and help."
Dad said that I could go out and start putting up the tent and he'd be along shortly. So I sent Alex a message telling him that I was going to get the tent started. Not even a minute later he sent back, "I'm here." lol. He must have been floating around outside.
The tent goes up. Alex stays an hour, then goes and gets changed. Play around on my computer for awhile: Texas Hold 'em, Facebook, trying to get him to talk to Courage online (which he wouldn't lol). Then he went on Jackinworld.com to "look for something to entertain" me. His words, except the "me" is me, not him... supposedly... :p
Then, it's like 11:30, he asks me about these two sites, porntube.com and youporn.com, I guess he wanted to know if they were real sites. I didn't know, so he typed them in :O Yep, they are real; straight porn mostly I think. So then he says, "Know any better sites?" :O I don't really want to go to a gay porn site with him around. I don't know why, but it's just embarrassing :\ So I type in xtube.com, which really isn't that good of a site, but it has both straight and gay porn on it. He selected the straight part of the site. He watched a couple vids. Ick, straight porn.... gag me with a spoon. But he didn't touch himself or anything while he was watching... Isn't that what you're supposed to do?
I guess he got bored with the porn cos after two or three vids he gave the computer back to me. I didn't want to go to any of my usual sites, as I've already said. It'd be different if I knew he was gay, but I thought it might gross him out of something. So anyway, the computer got put away.
I'm under my cover and he's just laying beside me. I figured it was time to jack off, so I was trying to get a boner under the blanket. He says, "I thought you didn't like to do it under covers?" which I don't. Right then I realize that everytime we do this he always comments on how I start out trying to get a boner under the cover (I don't want to pull out my flaccid dick, just my hard one :p)... Then I decide to play with him (not "that" way :p). I still don't have a boner yet, but I make the motions, still under the cover, as if I do and I'm going at it lol. Again, he comments on me doing it under the covers, but I still act as if I'm going at it. Then I go under the cover completely; he's like, "What are you doing?"
I say, "What do you think?"
"I don't know." So now he's playing dumb. I think he's trying to get my to come out of from under the covers. Then I say, "Wow, it's really hot under here" lol. He says, "So take the cover off" if we were chatting online I'm sure he would have added a "ffs" to the end lol. I could tell he's getting really annoyed cos I'm doing it under the cover and not where he can see.... at least that's what I think.
Okay, so I think I've tortured him enough so I come out, and we jack off. Just like the last time, I had a hard time "going the all the way" (i.e. coming). I don't know what it is, but I kept going a bit soft even though I was going at it! Maybe I'm too used to porn :\ I comment on this when he asks (for the millionth time) if I'm close to coming yet. So he says, "Well, here's your video" and he rolls on his side so I can get a better view of his dick, but since there's not much light on him, it doesn't really help. Anyway, it ends up taking 45mins :O for us to finish. I guess he was waiting for me, but he ended first. That did it for me and I finished too. We cleaned up and went to sleep.
This morning, we were messing around on the computer again. Then we were just laying there, and he says, "Look what I found" and pulls out his hard dick :O Then five minutes later he says that he's gonna go home.
That's it.
Comments?
Thoughts?
Feelings?
Criticism?
etc...?
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Well, Alex seemed more friendlier towards me in church this morning. As of late, it's not uncommon for either of us to really talk to each other in church. In other words, we barely say anything to each other, usually.
Today, he tapped me on the shoulder to get my attention about something, then later he tapped my knee to turn my attention to dead blades of grass that he was plucking from the bottom of his shoes o.O
Then I was drawing, as I sometimes do, on the back of the bulletin handout. Today, it was a weird bug and some UFOs lol. He looked at the strange looking bug and said, laughing, "What is wrong with you?" Then when I got up to leave at the end of church he said as I was folding up the bulletin, "You should be an artist." Not sure if he meant that seriously or not; I think he was joking.
Dad had a meeting after church with the Session, so I went home to tend to the dogs. When I walked back into the church to pick up Dad later, Alex said my name in a weird voice he occasionally does. It's like a high pitched voice... a "gay" voice if you will.
That was all that happened really.
Not much else to report today. My sister-in-law is here now with the niece. I really dislike babies so I'm sitting on the floor in the bathroom right now hiding out lol. I've been in here for a half hour now so I don't think my cover of an upset stomach is going to last much longer.
Oh, regarding the last post:
Personally, I'm torn between what I think I should do. On one hand I want to talk to him, but we all know I've wanted to do that before but always chickened out. On the other hand I want to do the sexual stuff cos, let's face it, it's fun doing it with someone else!
I will have my laptop in the tent with us, so be online tomorrow night (my time.), and I might let you say hi to him. He may "accidentally" stumble upon my blog too cos I have it favorited. Not to mention the porn :p
Okay, I guess I've got to go out and spend some time with family.... ugh...
Today, he tapped me on the shoulder to get my attention about something, then later he tapped my knee to turn my attention to dead blades of grass that he was plucking from the bottom of his shoes o.O
Then I was drawing, as I sometimes do, on the back of the bulletin handout. Today, it was a weird bug and some UFOs lol. He looked at the strange looking bug and said, laughing, "What is wrong with you?" Then when I got up to leave at the end of church he said as I was folding up the bulletin, "You should be an artist." Not sure if he meant that seriously or not; I think he was joking.
Dad had a meeting after church with the Session, so I went home to tend to the dogs. When I walked back into the church to pick up Dad later, Alex said my name in a weird voice he occasionally does. It's like a high pitched voice... a "gay" voice if you will.
That was all that happened really.
Not much else to report today. My sister-in-law is here now with the niece. I really dislike babies so I'm sitting on the floor in the bathroom right now hiding out lol. I've been in here for a half hour now so I don't think my cover of an upset stomach is going to last much longer.
Oh, regarding the last post:
Personally, I'm torn between what I think I should do. On one hand I want to talk to him, but we all know I've wanted to do that before but always chickened out. On the other hand I want to do the sexual stuff cos, let's face it, it's fun doing it with someone else!
I will have my laptop in the tent with us, so be online tomorrow night (my time.), and I might let you say hi to him. He may "accidentally" stumble upon my blog too cos I have it favorited. Not to mention the porn :p
Okay, I guess I've got to go out and spend some time with family.... ugh...
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
3 Weeks?! :o
Dunno if you've noticed or not, but I haven't made a post having anything to do with Alex in exactly 10 days. I guess part of the reason is that he was on vacation for a week; having just got back today. Also Dad has been on "vacation" for two weeks now. He isn't away or anything, rather just on vacation from church stuff. Naturally, I haven't been to church since the 12th since Dad is on "vacation." I'll be back in church on the 9th.
So anywho, that adds up to 4 weeks of not seeing Alex. Well, I've seen him and he's seen me, but not in a social setting. 3 of those weeks (the last two and the next one) make three weeks of not talking to him in person or via text message (tho he did send two dumb forwarded emails to me before he went on vacation).
Of course I've thought about him, as usual, but I haven't really had much of a desire to do anything with him (non-sexual things anyway ;) ). For instance, today I was walking up the stairs to my room when I head my phone beep and vibrate on my desk signaling that I had gotten a text message. Get this, I actually thought, "I hope it's not Alex asking to do something."
:o
Whoa... did I actually think that? I didn't know that was possible... lol
It wasn't him.
Does this mean I'm actually starting to get over him?
:O
I wonder if he's noticed the silence between us? I guess we'll see what happens two Sundays from now when we see each other in church...
What do I post about now since I don't have much of anything to say regarding Alex? Maybe this blog will eventually go to Blog Heaven with the others that have been stopping their blogs recently. I just deleted yet another blog (Courage's) from my links list the other day. It seems like it's getting smaller by the day!
That's all for now,
Peter
P.S. Apparently Mikey and I can't be considered E-BFs now. I guess he just got his own in real life. Whoever this person is just seemed to pop up outta nowhere. One day there's no one, then the next day he's getting blowjobs from someone o_O Meh... whatever...
P.S. x2: I went to a different eye doctor today. As soon as he walked in the exam room my gaydar pinged! No, I wasn't attracted to him or anything, but I think he's gay! Seriously, he had this light facial hair and a soft voice bordering on being feminine. When he was talking to Dad i snuck a peek at his hands, and what didn't I see? A wedding ring! He just had the air of a gay person around him, if you will.
P.S. x3: I've been extremely horny the past two days. Maybe that's a side effect of these eye drops? Anyone want to participate in a circle jerk with me? :D
P.S. x4: I'm getting all these P.S.s whenever I go through my labels and see labels that remind me of something I want to say.
So anywho, that adds up to 4 weeks of not seeing Alex. Well, I've seen him and he's seen me, but not in a social setting. 3 of those weeks (the last two and the next one) make three weeks of not talking to him in person or via text message (tho he did send two dumb forwarded emails to me before he went on vacation).
Of course I've thought about him, as usual, but I haven't really had much of a desire to do anything with him (non-sexual things anyway ;) ). For instance, today I was walking up the stairs to my room when I head my phone beep and vibrate on my desk signaling that I had gotten a text message. Get this, I actually thought, "I hope it's not Alex asking to do something."
:o
Whoa... did I actually think that? I didn't know that was possible... lol
It wasn't him.
Does this mean I'm actually starting to get over him?
:O
I wonder if he's noticed the silence between us? I guess we'll see what happens two Sundays from now when we see each other in church...
What do I post about now since I don't have much of anything to say regarding Alex? Maybe this blog will eventually go to Blog Heaven with the others that have been stopping their blogs recently. I just deleted yet another blog (Courage's) from my links list the other day. It seems like it's getting smaller by the day!
That's all for now,
Peter
P.S. Apparently Mikey and I can't be considered E-BFs now. I guess he just got his own in real life. Whoever this person is just seemed to pop up outta nowhere. One day there's no one, then the next day he's getting blowjobs from someone o_O Meh... whatever...
P.S. x2: I went to a different eye doctor today. As soon as he walked in the exam room my gaydar pinged! No, I wasn't attracted to him or anything, but I think he's gay! Seriously, he had this light facial hair and a soft voice bordering on being feminine. When he was talking to Dad i snuck a peek at his hands, and what didn't I see? A wedding ring! He just had the air of a gay person around him, if you will.
P.S. x3: I've been extremely horny the past two days. Maybe that's a side effect of these eye drops? Anyone want to participate in a circle jerk with me? :D
P.S. x4: I'm getting all these P.S.s whenever I go through my labels and see labels that remind me of something I want to say.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Great Time
Well, let's continue from the last post.
Alex got back from the bike trail, and helped his dad with the firewood stuff or whatever.
Then at 8:15 he sent me a txt saying that they were going out the get ice cream.
Between the time he left and the time he got back, Alex2 just randomly comes over and checks out the tent. I wasn't in it, but Dad was sitting on the porch and saw him there. So I was forced to sit and make small talk with him until Alex came back from the ice cream place. Alex2 again brought up the fact(?) that Alex and Joe are "way too close."
An hour and 15 minutes later (9:30), Alex finally got back home. It took us 15 more minutes just to get rid of Alex2.
After Alex2 left, Alex said, "Okay, let's go to the tent."
"Um, wait. What about the movie?"
"I don't really feel like watching it now."
Okay, he didn't want to watch the movie. No biggy. That just meant that we had more time in the tent :p
Once in the tent, the sexual stuff started happening almost instantly. I don't mean physical sexual stuff. Just the verbal stuff (ie him taking everything I say and spinning it into a sexual reference). We chatted for awhile until around midnight. I can't remember most of what was said or what we talked about. Throughout this time, he kept making small moves to instigate us masturbating together.
For example, he kept reminding me of things we used to say and do last year. Stuff which I can't say here because Matt just told me not to.
And, of course, he kept "readjusting" and "scratching" himself. As usual I asked if he wanted help. Most of the time he responded, "I'm good thanks."
Then at ~11:30 he asked, "So, is it almost time for your masturbation session yet?"
Well, that was the kickoff that started us wanking together. He wouldn't let me touch him, so no handjobs lol.
Okay, well, I'm not really sure if I should put in all the details or not. I've already done it when I described camping last year. So I guess I will now too. Plus it's fun to relive it :p
Anyway, to start off, I don't like to just pull it out in front of everyone when it's not hard lol. So I was underneath a heating blanket. So I'm tyring to get hard under the blanket when Alex asks, "I thought you didn't like doing it under a blanket?"
"No, I don't."
"Well here then, let me help you." Then he grabs the corner of the blanket and yanks if off me (just like he did last year).
Then a few minutes later he says, "It's really hot in here. I'm gonna take my pants and boxers off."
:O
OMG!
I could have cum right there!!!
We ended up having a race to see who could cum first. I won :p I'm pretty sure he let me win tho.
He kept asking me if I was close to finishing yet. When I'd say "no" he'd say, "Come on Peter, beat that meat!" and he'd repeat the "beat that meat" part a couple times. Things like that are the last thing that I'd expect to come from his mouth lol.
Anyway, like I said, I won :p Not by much though. He said (as it was dark I couldn't see) that he shot pretty far; all the way up to the top of his chest almost on his neck where he had his shirt pushed up to.
Okay, I've got to say it. I think Alex has the cutest dick I've ever seen lol.
So, after we did that we were both getting tired. It was already past midnight.
He fell asleep pretty quickly actually lol. But the neighbor's dog wouldn't shut up, so I didn't get to sleep so easily. Actually, while I'm waiting to fall asleep, I just lay there and watch Alex sleeping. Creepy?
At about ~2:30, Matt sent me a text asking what happened. I forgot to put my cell phone of vibrate, so it made the beeping sound that I have it set to make when I get a new text message. Surprisingly, this woke Alex up (he's a pretty heavy sleeper). He got up and said, "I have to pee. Should I walk to the edge of the hill and go?"
lol
Thinking that would be a bit dangerous for a person half asleep, I told him to just go on the other side of the boat. Then that made me have to go too lol. I guess we could have been more civilized and went inside, but it was 2:30 am and we were both half asleep.
Then when we got back in the tent, Alex said that he was cold now. I had been using the heating blanket the whole time. So I threw as much over his sleeping bag as I could without leaving me exposed lol. It wasn't working too well, so one of us had to move closer to the other so we could both get enough. I was the one to move because he was asleep already lol.
For the next 5 hours we slept less than a foot away from each other. I was sooo tempted to just throw my arms around him and cuddle with him, but I resisted the urge :p
I woke up at 6ish when the birds started singing. I couldn't do anything but lay there waiting for him to wake up. Finally he did at 9.
He asked if I was gonna masturbate again since he knows I usually do it before bed and after I wake up. I said that I could, and asked if he was again. He said he wasn't going to go the whole way, but that he would give me some visual aide :D
So, I used up two more tissues this morning. Between the two of us, I used 5 while he used 3. That's 8 less tissues I have to worry about now :p
I did ask him last night when he wants to camp out again. He just shrugged. And when he left he just said "See ya later."
So no more plans have been made to do anything as of yet.
So, what do you guys think?
Alex got back from the bike trail, and helped his dad with the firewood stuff or whatever.
Then at 8:15 he sent me a txt saying that they were going out the get ice cream.
Between the time he left and the time he got back, Alex2 just randomly comes over and checks out the tent. I wasn't in it, but Dad was sitting on the porch and saw him there. So I was forced to sit and make small talk with him until Alex came back from the ice cream place. Alex2 again brought up the fact(?) that Alex and Joe are "way too close."
An hour and 15 minutes later (9:30), Alex finally got back home. It took us 15 more minutes just to get rid of Alex2.
After Alex2 left, Alex said, "Okay, let's go to the tent."
"Um, wait. What about the movie?"
"I don't really feel like watching it now."
Okay, he didn't want to watch the movie. No biggy. That just meant that we had more time in the tent :p
Once in the tent, the sexual stuff started happening almost instantly. I don't mean physical sexual stuff. Just the verbal stuff (ie him taking everything I say and spinning it into a sexual reference). We chatted for awhile until around midnight. I can't remember most of what was said or what we talked about. Throughout this time, he kept making small moves to instigate us masturbating together.
For example, he kept reminding me of things we used to say and do last year. Stuff which I can't say here because Matt just told me not to.
And, of course, he kept "readjusting" and "scratching" himself. As usual I asked if he wanted help. Most of the time he responded, "I'm good thanks."
Then at ~11:30 he asked, "So, is it almost time for your masturbation session yet?"
Well, that was the kickoff that started us wanking together. He wouldn't let me touch him, so no handjobs lol.
Okay, well, I'm not really sure if I should put in all the details or not. I've already done it when I described camping last year. So I guess I will now too. Plus it's fun to relive it :p
Anyway, to start off, I don't like to just pull it out in front of everyone when it's not hard lol. So I was underneath a heating blanket. So I'm tyring to get hard under the blanket when Alex asks, "I thought you didn't like doing it under a blanket?"
"No, I don't."
"Well here then, let me help you." Then he grabs the corner of the blanket and yanks if off me (just like he did last year).
Then a few minutes later he says, "It's really hot in here. I'm gonna take my pants and boxers off."
:O
OMG!
I could have cum right there!!!
We ended up having a race to see who could cum first. I won :p I'm pretty sure he let me win tho.
He kept asking me if I was close to finishing yet. When I'd say "no" he'd say, "Come on Peter, beat that meat!" and he'd repeat the "beat that meat" part a couple times. Things like that are the last thing that I'd expect to come from his mouth lol.
Anyway, like I said, I won :p Not by much though. He said (as it was dark I couldn't see) that he shot pretty far; all the way up to the top of his chest almost on his neck where he had his shirt pushed up to.
Okay, I've got to say it. I think Alex has the cutest dick I've ever seen lol.
So, after we did that we were both getting tired. It was already past midnight.
He fell asleep pretty quickly actually lol. But the neighbor's dog wouldn't shut up, so I didn't get to sleep so easily. Actually, while I'm waiting to fall asleep, I just lay there and watch Alex sleeping. Creepy?
At about ~2:30, Matt sent me a text asking what happened. I forgot to put my cell phone of vibrate, so it made the beeping sound that I have it set to make when I get a new text message. Surprisingly, this woke Alex up (he's a pretty heavy sleeper). He got up and said, "I have to pee. Should I walk to the edge of the hill and go?"
lol
Thinking that would be a bit dangerous for a person half asleep, I told him to just go on the other side of the boat. Then that made me have to go too lol. I guess we could have been more civilized and went inside, but it was 2:30 am and we were both half asleep.
Then when we got back in the tent, Alex said that he was cold now. I had been using the heating blanket the whole time. So I threw as much over his sleeping bag as I could without leaving me exposed lol. It wasn't working too well, so one of us had to move closer to the other so we could both get enough. I was the one to move because he was asleep already lol.
For the next 5 hours we slept less than a foot away from each other. I was sooo tempted to just throw my arms around him and cuddle with him, but I resisted the urge :p
I woke up at 6ish when the birds started singing. I couldn't do anything but lay there waiting for him to wake up. Finally he did at 9.
He asked if I was gonna masturbate again since he knows I usually do it before bed and after I wake up. I said that I could, and asked if he was again. He said he wasn't going to go the whole way, but that he would give me some visual aide :D
So, I used up two more tissues this morning. Between the two of us, I used 5 while he used 3. That's 8 less tissues I have to worry about now :p
I did ask him last night when he wants to camp out again. He just shrugged. And when he left he just said "See ya later."
So no more plans have been made to do anything as of yet.
So, what do you guys think?
Friday, June 19, 2009
On the Porch Again ^_^
Well, I didn't think we were gonna sit outside tonight since he has an early baseball game tomorrow morning. But we did anyway. He just went in earlier than normal. Actually 10:30pm was when I used to go home last year. Now, that time seems to have been extended by 1.5 hours, now being midnight.
Anyway, since we weren't out for very long, and since his parents were right inside the door, nothing really happened. Well, except I was like two inches away from him for 5-10 minutes :D
He was looking at my new phone, and he said I could watch what he was doing so he didn't mess anything up. So that meant I got to look over his shoulder the whole time. Which really meant that my head was practically resting on his shoulder. Just by the way he was sitting and the way I was standing, my hands were extremely close to his um... private area ;)
But I controlled myself and didn't touch anything :p
He was doing that "re-adjusting" thing again. I asked if he wanted any help, but he still didn't say yes or no.
(Matt says that I shouldn't ask, I should just be doing it instead. "Reach down and give him a fondle" were his exact words.)
Also, camping came up again. It seems that he really wants to do it. He was talking about how if he didn't have a ball game in the morning it would have been a perfect night to camp out. He was also talking about breakfast that Dad makes lol.
He said as I was leaving, "We might not be able to do anything tomorrow. We're going to S----n."
So, we'll see I guess.
Anyway, since we weren't out for very long, and since his parents were right inside the door, nothing really happened. Well, except I was like two inches away from him for 5-10 minutes :D
He was looking at my new phone, and he said I could watch what he was doing so he didn't mess anything up. So that meant I got to look over his shoulder the whole time. Which really meant that my head was practically resting on his shoulder. Just by the way he was sitting and the way I was standing, my hands were extremely close to his um... private area ;)
But I controlled myself and didn't touch anything :p
He was doing that "re-adjusting" thing again. I asked if he wanted any help, but he still didn't say yes or no.
(Matt says that I shouldn't ask, I should just be doing it instead. "Reach down and give him a fondle" were his exact words.)
Also, camping came up again. It seems that he really wants to do it. He was talking about how if he didn't have a ball game in the morning it would have been a perfect night to camp out. He was also talking about breakfast that Dad makes lol.
He said as I was leaving, "We might not be able to do anything tomorrow. We're going to S----n."
So, we'll see I guess.
Finally!
We FINALLY sat on his porch tonight!
For 2 whole hours, from 10pm-midnight!
^_^
AND!
It almost got sexual too!
After his parents and sister went to bed, he got a blanket for himself since it was starting to get cooler out. I had a coat so I didn't get one.
After awhile he started to do things under the blanket. Such as "readjusting" himself. He did it so many times. Eventually, I just said, "Want some help?" To which he just looked at me and smiled, but didn't say yes or no to, so I didn't make any moves.
Then he kept doing things to make me come closer to him. Eventually I was right beside him on the floor of the porch. Just like I used to be whenever we started to take things a step further last year (i.e. hjs). By that time it was too late to start anything, and he said that it was time for him to go in and get his shower before bed.
So it's like he wanted something to happen since he was sorta making some moves if you will, but it's also like he's uncomfortable doing it again just by the way he suddenly said it was time to go in when things almost got physical. So...idk. We'll see what happens I guess.
He did ask when we were gonna camp out again. He actually said, "So, when are we gonna camp out?"
Of course I couldn't give an exact answer, but I did say, "Well, not this weekend since it's gonna rain cats and dogs." Then the conversation went to the expression "it's raining cats and dogs."
lol
He was starting to get a bit loopy towards the end. For instance, I commented on how long the plant between us is. I said, "You should take some scissors to that and trim it up some." Not intending it as a sexual reference, but that's the way he took it. He just thought that was the funniest thing in the whole world.
Not realizing why he was laughing, I said, "Um... I don't get it..."
"Oh, nothing. It's just after dark."
Which is something we started saying last year when we started talking about sexual stuff, not to mention doing sexual stuff :p
I wanted to ask if we were gonna start sitting out every night like we did last year. I'll have to ask the next time.
So, all in all, a good night.
Now, goodnight all! :p
For 2 whole hours, from 10pm-midnight!
^_^
AND!
It almost got sexual too!
After his parents and sister went to bed, he got a blanket for himself since it was starting to get cooler out. I had a coat so I didn't get one.
After awhile he started to do things under the blanket. Such as "readjusting" himself. He did it so many times. Eventually, I just said, "Want some help?" To which he just looked at me and smiled, but didn't say yes or no to, so I didn't make any moves.
Then he kept doing things to make me come closer to him. Eventually I was right beside him on the floor of the porch. Just like I used to be whenever we started to take things a step further last year (i.e. hjs). By that time it was too late to start anything, and he said that it was time for him to go in and get his shower before bed.
So it's like he wanted something to happen since he was sorta making some moves if you will, but it's also like he's uncomfortable doing it again just by the way he suddenly said it was time to go in when things almost got physical. So...idk. We'll see what happens I guess.
He did ask when we were gonna camp out again. He actually said, "So, when are we gonna camp out?"
Of course I couldn't give an exact answer, but I did say, "Well, not this weekend since it's gonna rain cats and dogs." Then the conversation went to the expression "it's raining cats and dogs."
lol
He was starting to get a bit loopy towards the end. For instance, I commented on how long the plant between us is. I said, "You should take some scissors to that and trim it up some." Not intending it as a sexual reference, but that's the way he took it. He just thought that was the funniest thing in the whole world.
Not realizing why he was laughing, I said, "Um... I don't get it..."
"Oh, nothing. It's just after dark."
Which is something we started saying last year when we started talking about sexual stuff, not to mention doing sexual stuff :p
I wanted to ask if we were gonna start sitting out every night like we did last year. I'll have to ask the next time.
So, all in all, a good night.
Now, goodnight all! :p
Friday, June 12, 2009
Summer Is Here. Yay?
I'm done with school for the next 3 months :D
So... Now what?
I don't know.
Alex brought up camping a few times the last time I saw him. So I guess we can start planning that out.
I probably won't talk to him on Sunday since I'll be pretty tied up with my whole family being around and all.
The majority of my Summer is gonna be spent in boredom I'm sure. There aren't any places hiring anywhere near here. I lost the trailer, so that means no lawn mowing business -_-
I guess I'll have more time to focus on my other blogs now. Though I am thinking about deleting my Civil War blog. I'm not really into that very much anymore. I'll probably also work on my 3D models. I haven't touched them in a long time. I'll post some pics if you're interested.
*crickets chirp*
Tumble weed rolls by*
Okay...
Guess you're not.
I'll also be online more now that school is done. Although, I may have to do Summer School because somehow I'm missing an English credit. I can take one full English course, and two electives in English next year. That will give me two credits in English. That'll be enough to graduate.
Dunno what else to talk about right now.
So...
OMG
I keep having these dreams. They all take place inside the tent while Alex and I are camping out. They're all sexual in nature for the most part. But they always end with us falling asleep in each other's arms, and they just have this love feeling to them
*warm, fuzzy feeling*
Maybe they're telling me I need jump on camping plans :p
Okay, that's all for now.
Oh no. One more thing:
Alex also sounded interested in seeing Valkyrie. So maybe there's an oppurtunity for a sleepover there? IDK
So... Now what?
I don't know.
Alex brought up camping a few times the last time I saw him. So I guess we can start planning that out.
I probably won't talk to him on Sunday since I'll be pretty tied up with my whole family being around and all.
The majority of my Summer is gonna be spent in boredom I'm sure. There aren't any places hiring anywhere near here. I lost the trailer, so that means no lawn mowing business -_-
I guess I'll have more time to focus on my other blogs now. Though I am thinking about deleting my Civil War blog. I'm not really into that very much anymore. I'll probably also work on my 3D models. I haven't touched them in a long time. I'll post some pics if you're interested.
*crickets chirp*
Tumble weed rolls by*
Okay...
Guess you're not.
I'll also be online more now that school is done. Although, I may have to do Summer School because somehow I'm missing an English credit. I can take one full English course, and two electives in English next year. That will give me two credits in English. That'll be enough to graduate.
Dunno what else to talk about right now.
So...
OMG
I keep having these dreams. They all take place inside the tent while Alex and I are camping out. They're all sexual in nature for the most part. But they always end with us falling asleep in each other's arms, and they just have this love feeling to them
*warm, fuzzy feeling*
Maybe they're telling me I need jump on camping plans :p
Okay, that's all for now.
Oh no. One more thing:
Alex also sounded interested in seeing Valkyrie. So maybe there's an oppurtunity for a sleepover there? IDK
Monday, June 8, 2009
Great Day
FFS MATT!!! STOP CHATTING WITH ME SO I CAN TYPE A POST!!!!
::1o Minutes Later::
(Sorry for any misspelled words or things like that. I'm gonna try to proofread, but I'm soo tired)
Oh ahem...
Well, today was awesome!
I just got back from Alex's a half hour ago (ie midnight). I was with him for 3 hours! That's a long time for me to be around him. So I guess I'll start at the beginning of the day.
Church (don't worry, no religious stuff):
I was playing pocket pull as usual. Actually, I've bypassed my pocket now and went straight for the meat :p (I don't actually make it obvious what I'm doing down there cos, well, I'm only really warming my hand up :) )
Anyway, Alex elbowed me and asked, "Why do you hate cats so much?" Obviously hinting at the "Every time you masturbate, God kills a kitten" thing. Can't remember what I said to that.
After Church:
Ate lunch, watched a movie, then had to go back up to the church for an open house thing.
Open House Thing:
It was Alex's grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary. They had a little shindig at the church. It was boring. Dad and I only stayed for a little bit.
After Open House Thing:
I went up to Mom's and worked on school stuff. I'm gonna do that all this week too with finals.
After Mom's:
I got home, two of my brothers and their female counterparts were there (wife and gf). I didn't eat dinner cos I wasnt really hungry. They left after awhile.
Yard Work and a Visitor:
I was bored, so I decided to cut the weeds by the side of the house. Then The Not So Annoying Friend actually came over! His name is also Alex, so just to minimize confusion, I'm just gonna call him The Not So Annoying Friend.
Suspicions:
I actually enjoyed talking to him for 45 minutes. He is only annoying when Joe is around him (previously known as The Annoying Friend).
It surprised me that we both had the same suspicions about Alex and Joe. Awhile back I just had a thought that if Alex is gay, then he is up to something with Joe. I'm pretty sure Joe is gay or bi. He stands so close to you; he's practically on top of you. He also touches you randomly, and inappropriately. He also put his arm around my shoulders a few times before... just randomly. Wacko
(btw, it turns out that The Not So Annoying Friend doesn't really like Joe.)
Not So Annoying Friend brought it up by saying, "Have you ever noticed that Alex and Joe are together a lot?"
"Yeah."
"I think they're up to 'something.'"
"Wow, I thought I was the only one who thought that."
"Well, it's pretty obvious that they always want to be around each other."
At this point we see Alex go out on his bike out the street in the direction of Joe's (his gma also lives out there too tho). Not So Annoying Friend said, "Oh, Alex is going out to get butt sex from Joe."
lol
Can't remember what happened next, but after 5 minutes Alex came back, and asked The Not So Annoying Friend if he wanted to play hockey.
Hockey:
They moved the hockey net right in front of my house. I was still sitting on the stoop, so I just watched.
After a little bit, The Not So Annoying Friend had to go eat (at 8:30pm. wtf?). So Alex and I were alone for a little bit. He asked, "Do you want to go inside later and play Driver 3 (video game)? We'll sit outside tomorrow, I just feel like playing video games tonight." Well, of course I wasn't going to object to anything he offered.
The Not So Annoying Friend came back out, and they played for a half hour more until Alex was getting tired of him and told him that we (Alex and I) were going inside. The Not So Annoying Friend isn't allowed inside of Alex's cos he's appearently grounded or something like that (not sure why he was out to begin with).
Basement:
Hmm...
Lots to talk about here, but I'll try to limit it.
Basically, Alex started twisting everything I said into something sexual (as usual). For example: He told me my hair was all messed up. I said, "Yeah, I don't feel any hard gell in it anymore." To this he just started cracking up. All because I said "hard."
There were other instances like this too.
Then we talked about camping. I said, "I don't know if I want to do that again this year." In a really disappointing tone he asked, "Why?" After hearing that disappointing "why?" I changed my mind. I guess he want to do it.
I can't really remember much right now (it's late). Oh, he kept saying "us" in reference to me and him. IDK, I've never noticed it before, but he kept saying it.
At midnight, I decided to leave. I earlier said, "I hope Dad doesn't lock me out."
Then going out Alex's door, he said, "If you're locked out; just send me a txt and you can come back over."
Hmm... tempting...
I thought for a minute about lying, and saying that the door was locked. But then I thought, how am I gonna get myself out of that lie in the morning?
So I decided against it. Good thing too cos Dad was still up. Something I wouldn't have known if I didn't go inside.
So, yeah. Today was a pretty good day.
And we've made plans to sit outside tomorrow night :D I wonder if we'll stay out until midnight. It's awfully nice out tonight. Shouda camped out tonight. It is b-e-a-u-tiful out.
Okay, that's enough from me tonight.
Good night all!
::1o Minutes Later::
(Sorry for any misspelled words or things like that. I'm gonna try to proofread, but I'm soo tired)
Oh ahem...
Well, today was awesome!
I just got back from Alex's a half hour ago (ie midnight). I was with him for 3 hours! That's a long time for me to be around him. So I guess I'll start at the beginning of the day.
Church (don't worry, no religious stuff):
I was playing pocket pull as usual. Actually, I've bypassed my pocket now and went straight for the meat :p (I don't actually make it obvious what I'm doing down there cos, well, I'm only really warming my hand up :) )
Anyway, Alex elbowed me and asked, "Why do you hate cats so much?" Obviously hinting at the "Every time you masturbate, God kills a kitten" thing. Can't remember what I said to that.
After Church:
Ate lunch, watched a movie, then had to go back up to the church for an open house thing.
Open House Thing:
It was Alex's grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary. They had a little shindig at the church. It was boring. Dad and I only stayed for a little bit.
After Open House Thing:
I went up to Mom's and worked on school stuff. I'm gonna do that all this week too with finals.
After Mom's:
I got home, two of my brothers and their female counterparts were there (wife and gf). I didn't eat dinner cos I wasnt really hungry. They left after awhile.
Yard Work and a Visitor:
I was bored, so I decided to cut the weeds by the side of the house. Then The Not So Annoying Friend actually came over! His name is also Alex, so just to minimize confusion, I'm just gonna call him The Not So Annoying Friend.
Suspicions:
I actually enjoyed talking to him for 45 minutes. He is only annoying when Joe is around him (previously known as The Annoying Friend).
It surprised me that we both had the same suspicions about Alex and Joe. Awhile back I just had a thought that if Alex is gay, then he is up to something with Joe. I'm pretty sure Joe is gay or bi. He stands so close to you; he's practically on top of you. He also touches you randomly, and inappropriately. He also put his arm around my shoulders a few times before... just randomly. Wacko
(btw, it turns out that The Not So Annoying Friend doesn't really like Joe.)
Not So Annoying Friend brought it up by saying, "Have you ever noticed that Alex and Joe are together a lot?"
"Yeah."
"I think they're up to 'something.'"
"Wow, I thought I was the only one who thought that."
"Well, it's pretty obvious that they always want to be around each other."
At this point we see Alex go out on his bike out the street in the direction of Joe's (his gma also lives out there too tho). Not So Annoying Friend said, "Oh, Alex is going out to get butt sex from Joe."
lol
Can't remember what happened next, but after 5 minutes Alex came back, and asked The Not So Annoying Friend if he wanted to play hockey.
Hockey:
They moved the hockey net right in front of my house. I was still sitting on the stoop, so I just watched.
After a little bit, The Not So Annoying Friend had to go eat (at 8:30pm. wtf?). So Alex and I were alone for a little bit. He asked, "Do you want to go inside later and play Driver 3 (video game)? We'll sit outside tomorrow, I just feel like playing video games tonight." Well, of course I wasn't going to object to anything he offered.
The Not So Annoying Friend came back out, and they played for a half hour more until Alex was getting tired of him and told him that we (Alex and I) were going inside. The Not So Annoying Friend isn't allowed inside of Alex's cos he's appearently grounded or something like that (not sure why he was out to begin with).
Basement:
Hmm...
Lots to talk about here, but I'll try to limit it.
Basically, Alex started twisting everything I said into something sexual (as usual). For example: He told me my hair was all messed up. I said, "Yeah, I don't feel any hard gell in it anymore." To this he just started cracking up. All because I said "hard."
There were other instances like this too.
Then we talked about camping. I said, "I don't know if I want to do that again this year." In a really disappointing tone he asked, "Why?" After hearing that disappointing "why?" I changed my mind. I guess he want to do it.
I can't really remember much right now (it's late). Oh, he kept saying "us" in reference to me and him. IDK, I've never noticed it before, but he kept saying it.
At midnight, I decided to leave. I earlier said, "I hope Dad doesn't lock me out."
Then going out Alex's door, he said, "If you're locked out; just send me a txt and you can come back over."
Hmm... tempting...
I thought for a minute about lying, and saying that the door was locked. But then I thought, how am I gonna get myself out of that lie in the morning?
So I decided against it. Good thing too cos Dad was still up. Something I wouldn't have known if I didn't go inside.
So, yeah. Today was a pretty good day.
And we've made plans to sit outside tomorrow night :D I wonder if we'll stay out until midnight. It's awfully nice out tonight. Shouda camped out tonight. It is b-e-a-u-tiful out.
Okay, that's enough from me tonight.
Good night all!
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Another Dream AND Some Other Things
Last night around 10ish, I decided to go for a run with the dogs.
*Gasp*
Me? Exercising?
Lol
I took Skylar first. We ran from the boat to the road and back 5 times (Dad says thats about 100 feet each way). Then I got chubbs and ran the same thing. It didn't last long, but it really helped clear my head of all the things I was thinking about yesterday.
Afterwords, I got the idea to wake up at 5am this morning and walk up to the church and back (the long ways of course). Dad says the way I planned to go would be about a mile or more.
I set my phone to go off at 4:45.
Once 4:45 came around and the alarm went off, I was ready to get up and go. Then I noticed it was a little dark outside still. So I made the mistake of hitting the snooze button. Five minutes later, the phone went off again. Again, I hit the snooze button. Every five minutes up until 5am, I hit the snooze button. Once at 5, I was too tired to get up. So I reset the alarm to go off at 8am.
Somewhere between 5 and 8, I had this interesting dream. I don't remember how it started, so I'll just skip to the good parts :D
Somehow, Alex and I were in my room behind a closed door...
...OMG, this sounds so weird now...
Anyway, he was dressed only in underwear lol. Eventually, we both started rubbing each other and kissing.
Then we get interrupted...
...by the evil queen from Snow White ffs!
I guess she took Dad's place. She was making pizza, but she kept calling it lasagna (oddly enough, it looked like the same pizza Mom brought last week. Also I ate lasagna the other day).
Anywho, Alex and I hid under the covers on my bed. There we gave each other handjobs. We ended up cumming at the same time lol.
After we got done, we both locked ourselves in the bathroom and cleaned up. Then before he left, I asked
"Did you do all this because you like me? Or because you're just horny?"
He answered, "Just because I was horny." Then he left. That's when I woke up.
Gah!
Can't he even like me in my dreams ffs!!!!????!!!!
Okay, enough about that.
Today in church, I stuck my hand down my pants.
^_^
I didn't do anything while it was down there. My hands were just cold lol.
Oh!
I forgot to tell you.
Yesterday, I sent a text message to all my old friends whos' numbers I have. It said, "Thought you'd like to know that I'm seriously considering coming back to [enter city name here] for my senior year."
Some time after, I was just looking at my sent messages. I realized that I had accidently sent that text to Alex too!
:\
I actually wasn't going to tell him cos I don't really know what to say to him if he askes.
He didn't say anything about it in church today so...
Well, I think that is all I have to report for now.
Btw
Someone asked in the comments, so I guess I should also report that nothing has been done about the neighbor's animals yet.
*Gasp*
Me? Exercising?
Lol
I took Skylar first. We ran from the boat to the road and back 5 times (Dad says thats about 100 feet each way). Then I got chubbs and ran the same thing. It didn't last long, but it really helped clear my head of all the things I was thinking about yesterday.
Afterwords, I got the idea to wake up at 5am this morning and walk up to the church and back (the long ways of course). Dad says the way I planned to go would be about a mile or more.
I set my phone to go off at 4:45.
Once 4:45 came around and the alarm went off, I was ready to get up and go. Then I noticed it was a little dark outside still. So I made the mistake of hitting the snooze button. Five minutes later, the phone went off again. Again, I hit the snooze button. Every five minutes up until 5am, I hit the snooze button. Once at 5, I was too tired to get up. So I reset the alarm to go off at 8am.
Somewhere between 5 and 8, I had this interesting dream. I don't remember how it started, so I'll just skip to the good parts :D
Somehow, Alex and I were in my room behind a closed door...
...OMG, this sounds so weird now...
Anyway, he was dressed only in underwear lol. Eventually, we both started rubbing each other and kissing.
Then we get interrupted...
...by the evil queen from Snow White ffs!
I guess she took Dad's place. She was making pizza, but she kept calling it lasagna (oddly enough, it looked like the same pizza Mom brought last week. Also I ate lasagna the other day).
Anywho, Alex and I hid under the covers on my bed. There we gave each other handjobs. We ended up cumming at the same time lol.
After we got done, we both locked ourselves in the bathroom and cleaned up. Then before he left, I asked
"Did you do all this because you like me? Or because you're just horny?"
He answered, "Just because I was horny." Then he left. That's when I woke up.
Gah!
Can't he even like me in my dreams ffs!!!!????!!!!
Okay, enough about that.
Today in church, I stuck my hand down my pants.
^_^
I didn't do anything while it was down there. My hands were just cold lol.
Oh!
I forgot to tell you.
Yesterday, I sent a text message to all my old friends whos' numbers I have. It said, "Thought you'd like to know that I'm seriously considering coming back to [enter city name here] for my senior year."
Some time after, I was just looking at my sent messages. I realized that I had accidently sent that text to Alex too!
:\
I actually wasn't going to tell him cos I don't really know what to say to him if he askes.
He didn't say anything about it in church today so...
Well, I think that is all I have to report for now.
Btw
Someone asked in the comments, so I guess I should also report that nothing has been done about the neighbor's animals yet.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Question Everyone Asks: Part II
Before I actually get into the sermon outline; there are actually two parts to this post. The first deals with the sermon, and the other is about what is over on my Twitter right now (I just got back from Alex's).
Okay now for the sermon part. You might want to read or re-read Part I first.
And remember; this is just an outline. There was a lot more said than what you see here.
April 26, 2009
Scripture: Psalm 66
Message: The 'Why' Question
Introduction: In considering the Titanic tragedy or any other, the question is raised, "why would God allow such a thing?" The thinking goes, if God is good, then He must be powerless to stop it. If He is all-powerful and can stop it and doesn't, then He must not be a good and loving God. Psalm 66 speaks about both God's power and His love:
[If you have seen what a Psalm (a Psalm is a song) is written like, you will know that it is written differently than the rest of the Bible. There are numerous indentations IN THE MIDDLE of a paragraph. For some reason you can't indent on here, so I'll just have to write without all the indents.]
Psalm 66
Shout with joy to God, all the earth! Sing the glory of his name; make his praise glorious! Say to God, "How awesome are your deeds! So great is your power that your enemies cringe before you. All the earth bows down to you; they sing praise to you, they sing praise to your name."
Come and see what God has done, how awesome his works in man's behalf! He turned the sea into dry land, they passed through the waters on foot- come, let us rejoice in him. He rules forever by his power, his eyes watch the nations- let not the rebellious rise up against him.
Praise our God, O peoples, let the sound of his praise be heard; he has preserved our lives and kept our feet from slipping. For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.
I will come to your temple with burnt offerings and fulfill my vows to you- vows my lips promised and my mouth spoke when I was in trouble. I will sacrifice fat animals to you and an offering of rams; I will offer bulls and goats.
Come and listen, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me. I cried out to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue. If I had cherished sin in my heart the Lord would not have listened; but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer. Praise be to God who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!
Introduction: In considering the Titanic tragedy or any other, the question is raised, "why would God allow such a thing?" The thinking goes, if God is good, then He must be powerless to stop it. If He is all-powerful and can stop it and doesn't, then He must not be a good and loving God. Psalm 66 speaks about both God's power and His love.
1. We will look at this question and at some other things overlooked in considering the problem of evil.
2. God allows, but does not cause. God did not put the iceberg in front of Titanic. Nor did God put Titanic on a collision course with the iceberg, nor for any of the factors in her design and construction that prevented evasive maneuvers.
3. These were the products of men's decisions.
4. In making decisions; man is exercising the gift of the will which God gave to man. God could have moved the iceberg by a supernatural act, but chose not too.
5. God could have overruled the decisions of men, but at the cost of removing the very gift of the will He gave man.
6. In the end, the question of why God allows is pointless. It has more to do with the will of man than the power and love of God.
Conclusion: Beyond this is God's amazing ability to bring good out of tragedy.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
So another hot day today. I really can't stand heat. I get headaches if I'm out in it for too long unless I have a drink or something to keep me cool.
Alex sent me a message asking if I wanted to come over with the skates. Of course I would. When I sent my reply I saw Not-So-Annoying-Friend coming down the road. I went over and gave him the skates, then went and stood in the shade while they played around with the puck. Luckily, Alex's sister was out too so I had someone to talk too. They only thing Alex and his friend were talking about was school stuff so I really couldn't join in the conversation since I don't know many people in their grade.
After awhile, I was starting to get a headache. Alex offered to take us inside, but I declined. I just wanted to go back home and rest a little. I did tell him that I would come back out if he wanted me too after it got cooler out.
There was one interesting thing that happened, or maybe it didn't. lol I'm not sure. Alex's parents got their front porch cleaned off yesterday and put the chairs and swing out. I think Alex asked me if I wanted to start sitting outside with him at night again like we used to do last year (this is where all the handjobs took place). I'm just not sure if that's what he said or not because everyone (except me) was talking at the same time and I really couldn't hear him. He didn't ask a second time (yet) either. So, not sure if it really happened, or if the heat had just gone to my head lol.
He just returned the hockey net and skates. I think his family is going on a bike ride with another family from the church. I asked him if he would want the skates when he got back. He said he didn't know because it will probably be dark when they get back (they must be eating out too).
So I guess I'll find out later tonight if he did infact ask if I wanted to sit outside, or if I was just imagining things.
Anyway, I've gotta go eat dinner now.
P.S. I think I said this in the last post, but I'll say it again. I will be answering the questions I was given sometime tomorrow. So if you have any, you better ask now!
P.P.S (Jeez, now I'm starting to sound like Torchy! :p) Just for fun, I added a thingy below my profile pic and name. It counts how many times I've killed a kitten (aka masturbated). I'm sure you all really want to know that :p. I might leave it up for a week, or maybe longer. We'll see.
Okay now for the sermon part. You might want to read or re-read Part I first.
And remember; this is just an outline. There was a lot more said than what you see here.
April 26, 2009
Scripture: Psalm 66
Message: The 'Why' Question
Introduction: In considering the Titanic tragedy or any other, the question is raised, "why would God allow such a thing?" The thinking goes, if God is good, then He must be powerless to stop it. If He is all-powerful and can stop it and doesn't, then He must not be a good and loving God. Psalm 66 speaks about both God's power and His love:
[If you have seen what a Psalm (a Psalm is a song) is written like, you will know that it is written differently than the rest of the Bible. There are numerous indentations IN THE MIDDLE of a paragraph. For some reason you can't indent on here, so I'll just have to write without all the indents.]
Psalm 66
Shout with joy to God, all the earth! Sing the glory of his name; make his praise glorious! Say to God, "How awesome are your deeds! So great is your power that your enemies cringe before you. All the earth bows down to you; they sing praise to you, they sing praise to your name."
Come and see what God has done, how awesome his works in man's behalf! He turned the sea into dry land, they passed through the waters on foot- come, let us rejoice in him. He rules forever by his power, his eyes watch the nations- let not the rebellious rise up against him.
Praise our God, O peoples, let the sound of his praise be heard; he has preserved our lives and kept our feet from slipping. For you, O God, tested us; you refined us like silver. You brought us into prison and laid burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us to a place of abundance.
I will come to your temple with burnt offerings and fulfill my vows to you- vows my lips promised and my mouth spoke when I was in trouble. I will sacrifice fat animals to you and an offering of rams; I will offer bulls and goats.
Come and listen, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me. I cried out to him with my mouth; his praise was on my tongue. If I had cherished sin in my heart the Lord would not have listened; but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer. Praise be to God who has not rejected my prayer or withheld his love from me!
Introduction: In considering the Titanic tragedy or any other, the question is raised, "why would God allow such a thing?" The thinking goes, if God is good, then He must be powerless to stop it. If He is all-powerful and can stop it and doesn't, then He must not be a good and loving God. Psalm 66 speaks about both God's power and His love.
1. We will look at this question and at some other things overlooked in considering the problem of evil.
2. God allows, but does not cause. God did not put the iceberg in front of Titanic. Nor did God put Titanic on a collision course with the iceberg, nor for any of the factors in her design and construction that prevented evasive maneuvers.
3. These were the products of men's decisions.
4. In making decisions; man is exercising the gift of the will which God gave to man. God could have moved the iceberg by a supernatural act, but chose not too.
5. God could have overruled the decisions of men, but at the cost of removing the very gift of the will He gave man.
6. In the end, the question of why God allows is pointless. It has more to do with the will of man than the power and love of God.
Conclusion: Beyond this is God's amazing ability to bring good out of tragedy.
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So another hot day today. I really can't stand heat. I get headaches if I'm out in it for too long unless I have a drink or something to keep me cool.
Alex sent me a message asking if I wanted to come over with the skates. Of course I would. When I sent my reply I saw Not-So-Annoying-Friend coming down the road. I went over and gave him the skates, then went and stood in the shade while they played around with the puck. Luckily, Alex's sister was out too so I had someone to talk too. They only thing Alex and his friend were talking about was school stuff so I really couldn't join in the conversation since I don't know many people in their grade.
After awhile, I was starting to get a headache. Alex offered to take us inside, but I declined. I just wanted to go back home and rest a little. I did tell him that I would come back out if he wanted me too after it got cooler out.
There was one interesting thing that happened, or maybe it didn't. lol I'm not sure. Alex's parents got their front porch cleaned off yesterday and put the chairs and swing out. I think Alex asked me if I wanted to start sitting outside with him at night again like we used to do last year (this is where all the handjobs took place). I'm just not sure if that's what he said or not because everyone (except me) was talking at the same time and I really couldn't hear him. He didn't ask a second time (yet) either. So, not sure if it really happened, or if the heat had just gone to my head lol.
He just returned the hockey net and skates. I think his family is going on a bike ride with another family from the church. I asked him if he would want the skates when he got back. He said he didn't know because it will probably be dark when they get back (they must be eating out too).
So I guess I'll find out later tonight if he did infact ask if I wanted to sit outside, or if I was just imagining things.
Anyway, I've gotta go eat dinner now.
P.S. I think I said this in the last post, but I'll say it again. I will be answering the questions I was given sometime tomorrow. So if you have any, you better ask now!
P.P.S (Jeez, now I'm starting to sound like Torchy! :p) Just for fun, I added a thingy below my profile pic and name. It counts how many times I've killed a kitten (aka masturbated). I'm sure you all really want to know that :p. I might leave it up for a week, or maybe longer. We'll see.
Friday, April 24, 2009
My Afternoon With Alex
Okay, this is going to be one post, but with two parts to it. The first part WAS where I beg for more question. The second part is about my afternoon with Alex.
I WAS going to beg for more questions. I even had a couple of paragraphs written. But while I was proofreading this post, Josh asked a WHOLE BUNCH of pervy questions. I think he covered just about every question possible lol. But I will still take whatever question you want to ask.
BTW, whatever questions I do end up with will be answered after the weekend.
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Alex sent me a txt msg this afternoon while I was busy killing kittens. He asked if I was home. I replied, "Maybe. Why?" He asked if I wanted to come over with the skates. It's a hard choice between finishing masturbating, which I had just started doing, or going over to Alex's. Well, I chose the latter.
While Alex was putting the skates on, he was telling me about something that happened while they were at the hockey game. He was talking slowly with breaks between each word. He was saying, "I...was...coming...out...of...the-" I finished the sentence by adding, "...closet?" He just looked at me and smiled then went on with the story. BTW, the word he was going to say was "bathroom."
If you look at my Twitter; you'll see a post that says, "There is some drunk guy down the road making sounds like he's having an orgasm." After we heard this guy making all these moaning noises; I said, "I think he needs a tissue now."
Then I said to him, "Guess what the sermon is going to be about on Sunday." He said, " I don't know. What?" Obviously joking I said, "It's going to be about how everytime a person masturbates God kills a kitten." He laughed and said, "And everytime God masturbates, Chuck Norris kills a lion." I just rolled my eyes and laughed. I hate Chuch Norris jokes. lol
Then I went on to say the same thing I said in the last post, "I'm surprised in the ten years I've been doing it that cats are still around." He laughed and we went on to joke about my brothers cat dying the next time I do it. Then I told him that he interrupted me while I was doing it when he asked me to come over. I added, "It's okay because I already did it twice today."
He laughed and said, "Are you like a smoker? You can only go a short amount of time without doing it?" Of course I said yes. lol
Umm I guess that about covers it. Oh, and he told me and his sister (after her and their mom got back from school) that Annoying Friend is grounded for getting 5 days in ISS (In School Suspension). So I guess he won't be around for the weekend.
Well, that's all I have to report on Alex.
It has been hot all day. It's 11:30 p.m. right now and it's STILL hot (I don't have AC). A really good night to be out camping :)
After I had that dream the other night, I really want to go camping with Alex now :D Oh, and I don't mean just because of the sexual stuff. I do really enjoy camping. Even if it is just in the back yard. lol
I think I'm going to ask Alex if he wants to do that again this summer.
Now if you comment on this part of the post, YOU HAVE TO ASK ME A QUESTION! And make it a good one too ;)
And don't forget that you can always post the questions anonymously if you feel too embaressed to ask them using your real name *cough Col cough*
I WAS going to beg for more questions. I even had a couple of paragraphs written. But while I was proofreading this post, Josh asked a WHOLE BUNCH of pervy questions. I think he covered just about every question possible lol. But I will still take whatever question you want to ask.
BTW, whatever questions I do end up with will be answered after the weekend.
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Alex sent me a txt msg this afternoon while I was busy killing kittens. He asked if I was home. I replied, "Maybe. Why?" He asked if I wanted to come over with the skates. It's a hard choice between finishing masturbating, which I had just started doing, or going over to Alex's. Well, I chose the latter.
While Alex was putting the skates on, he was telling me about something that happened while they were at the hockey game. He was talking slowly with breaks between each word. He was saying, "I...was...coming...out...of...the-" I finished the sentence by adding, "...closet?" He just looked at me and smiled then went on with the story. BTW, the word he was going to say was "bathroom."
If you look at my Twitter; you'll see a post that says, "There is some drunk guy down the road making sounds like he's having an orgasm." After we heard this guy making all these moaning noises; I said, "I think he needs a tissue now."
Then I said to him, "Guess what the sermon is going to be about on Sunday." He said, " I don't know. What?" Obviously joking I said, "It's going to be about how everytime a person masturbates God kills a kitten." He laughed and said, "And everytime God masturbates, Chuck Norris kills a lion." I just rolled my eyes and laughed. I hate Chuch Norris jokes. lol
Then I went on to say the same thing I said in the last post, "I'm surprised in the ten years I've been doing it that cats are still around." He laughed and we went on to joke about my brothers cat dying the next time I do it. Then I told him that he interrupted me while I was doing it when he asked me to come over. I added, "It's okay because I already did it twice today."
He laughed and said, "Are you like a smoker? You can only go a short amount of time without doing it?" Of course I said yes. lol
Umm I guess that about covers it. Oh, and he told me and his sister (after her and their mom got back from school) that Annoying Friend is grounded for getting 5 days in ISS (In School Suspension). So I guess he won't be around for the weekend.
Well, that's all I have to report on Alex.
It has been hot all day. It's 11:30 p.m. right now and it's STILL hot (I don't have AC). A really good night to be out camping :)
After I had that dream the other night, I really want to go camping with Alex now :D Oh, and I don't mean just because of the sexual stuff. I do really enjoy camping. Even if it is just in the back yard. lol
I think I'm going to ask Alex if he wants to do that again this summer.
Now if you comment on this part of the post, YOU HAVE TO ASK ME A QUESTION! And make it a good one too ;)
And don't forget that you can always post the questions anonymously if you feel too embaressed to ask them using your real name *cough Col cough*
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Hahahahaha
Not sure why I find these so funny, but I thought I'd post them anyway.
Buffing the Banana
Holding Your Sausage Hostage
Jackin' the Beanstalk
Rounding up the Tadpoles
Slap Boxing the One-Eyed Champ
Spank the Frank
Applying the hand brake
Attacking the one-eyed purple-headed warrior (purple headed!?!?!)
Auditioning the finger puppets
Beef-stroke-it-off
Boxing the bald champ
Charming the snake
Checking for testicular cancer (I haven't noticed any lumps in the 10 years that I've been checking)
Choking Kojak
Choking the gecko
Squeezing the cream from the flesh Twinkie
Straddle your paddle
Taking matters into your own hands
Teasing the weasel
Thumping the pump
Tickling the pickle
bash the bishop
choke the chicken
hang the yetti
yank the plank
clean the pipes
grapple the gorilla
pet the one eyed snake
stroke the salami
massage colin
toss off
shake hands with the milkman
plain old wank
greet the old chap
tommy tank
josseling
flogging the dolphin
playing tug of war
pumping your fist
having a "german tank"
having a "down town jeremy brown"
having a "five knuckle shuffle"
having "one on the house"
polishing the pipe
jerkin' the gerkin
massaging the lower horn
releasing the pearl jam
whackin' the mole
jackin' the beanstalk
erecting the monument
lubing the tube
beating around the bush
wank in the tank
Wow! I had no idea there were so many terms for my favorite activity! I personally usually just say jacking/jerking off, masturbating, or wanking. Wanking however is a term I don't really like. It just seems so...foreign. Oh wait, it isn't an American term is it?
Okay, that was a side of me that doesn't show itself on here too often. Maybe I should keep it that way?
BTW, I've posted twice already today so if you haven't read the other two yet, GO!
Buffing the Banana
Holding Your Sausage Hostage
Jackin' the Beanstalk
Rounding up the Tadpoles
Slap Boxing the One-Eyed Champ
Spank the Frank
Applying the hand brake
Attacking the one-eyed purple-headed warrior (purple headed!?!?!)
Auditioning the finger puppets
Beef-stroke-it-off
Boxing the bald champ
Charming the snake
Checking for testicular cancer (I haven't noticed any lumps in the 10 years that I've been checking)
Choking Kojak
Choking the gecko
Squeezing the cream from the flesh Twinkie
Straddle your paddle
Taking matters into your own hands
Teasing the weasel
Thumping the pump
Tickling the pickle
bash the bishop
choke the chicken
hang the yetti
yank the plank
clean the pipes
grapple the gorilla
pet the one eyed snake
stroke the salami
massage colin
toss off
shake hands with the milkman
plain old wank
greet the old chap
tommy tank
josseling
flogging the dolphin
playing tug of war
pumping your fist
having a "german tank"
having a "down town jeremy brown"
having a "five knuckle shuffle"
having "one on the house"
polishing the pipe
jerkin' the gerkin
massaging the lower horn
releasing the pearl jam
whackin' the mole
jackin' the beanstalk
erecting the monument
lubing the tube
beating around the bush
wank in the tank
Wow! I had no idea there were so many terms for my favorite activity! I personally usually just say jacking/jerking off, masturbating, or wanking. Wanking however is a term I don't really like. It just seems so...foreign. Oh wait, it isn't an American term is it?
Okay, that was a side of me that doesn't show itself on here too often. Maybe I should keep it that way?
BTW, I've posted twice already today so if you haven't read the other two yet, GO!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Skater Boy
Actually I think that term applies to skateboarders, not someone who roller skates. Oh well.
Anywho, Alex sent me a message last night. You would know that if you read my twitter ;)
He said, "You should bring the skates over."
I went out and said,"Can't you ask nicer?" lol
He is starting to get the hang of it. He fell a couple of times. It was hilarious!
Couple interesting things worth mentioning:
1. I was leaning with my back against his garage. He turned towards me, and forced me against the wall giving me a hug....but not really. I was pressed against the wall and he was pressed against me with his hands on the wall by my head.
WOW!
2. I grabbed him a couple of times to keep him from falling.
Awwww
3. He grabbed my hand/arm a few times to stop from falling. A couple of times he would grab my arm and swing around behind me so he was pressed up against me. He would keep that position for a minute or two before he would keep skating. I said when he did it the third time, "Are you getting a little frisky or something?"
:D:D:D:D:D
He just laughed and went back to skating.
4. He fell flat on his butt. Later he said, "My butt really hurts." I playfully said, "What were you doing back there?" Hinting at sex of course. He responded, "Oh I think you know."
GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY!!!!!!
5. He gave me a few "love taps" with his hockey stick. A "love tap" is when one person takes the stick and taps another person between the legs in the "love area". Hence the term "love tap."
I didn't know it was called, or even what it was, until Alex told me.
6. He asked me if I was going to go watch his first baseball game. Something he never asked me before. I actually never got the chance to answer because he started rambling on about how it was so easy to beat the team they will be playing.
lol
7. The usual "locker room talk" came from him after awhile. He would twist every innocent thing I said into a sexual remark.
8. He skated past me going down his driveway, so I ran after him to try to beat him to the other end (yes, I can run). He got scared after I came up behind him. He said,"If you were a mean person, you would probably push me down."
So I guess he doesn't think I'm mean. lol
So, all in all it was a good night for me. :D
Anywho, Alex sent me a message last night. You would know that if you read my twitter ;)
He said, "You should bring the skates over."
I went out and said,"Can't you ask nicer?" lol
He is starting to get the hang of it. He fell a couple of times. It was hilarious!
Couple interesting things worth mentioning:
1. I was leaning with my back against his garage. He turned towards me, and forced me against the wall giving me a hug....but not really. I was pressed against the wall and he was pressed against me with his hands on the wall by my head.
WOW!
2. I grabbed him a couple of times to keep him from falling.
Awwww
3. He grabbed my hand/arm a few times to stop from falling. A couple of times he would grab my arm and swing around behind me so he was pressed up against me. He would keep that position for a minute or two before he would keep skating. I said when he did it the third time, "Are you getting a little frisky or something?"
:D:D:D:D:D
He just laughed and went back to skating.
4. He fell flat on his butt. Later he said, "My butt really hurts." I playfully said, "What were you doing back there?" Hinting at sex of course. He responded, "Oh I think you know."
GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY!!!!!!
5. He gave me a few "love taps" with his hockey stick. A "love tap" is when one person takes the stick and taps another person between the legs in the "love area". Hence the term "love tap."
I didn't know it was called, or even what it was, until Alex told me.
6. He asked me if I was going to go watch his first baseball game. Something he never asked me before. I actually never got the chance to answer because he started rambling on about how it was so easy to beat the team they will be playing.
lol
7. The usual "locker room talk" came from him after awhile. He would twist every innocent thing I said into a sexual remark.
8. He skated past me going down his driveway, so I ran after him to try to beat him to the other end (yes, I can run). He got scared after I came up behind him. He said,"If you were a mean person, you would probably push me down."
So I guess he doesn't think I'm mean. lol
So, all in all it was a good night for me. :D
Monday, April 13, 2009
Part III
Awhile after I got back from getting my hair cut, Alex sent me a message saying, "You should bring those [skates] back over."
I replied, "Yeah maybe."
After a few minutes he said, "Well... Are you?"
"I don't know. Every time I do an idiot shows up."
"I don't think anyone is coming back."
"Fine, I'll be over in a minute. But I'm not in the best of moods now."
So I went over with the skates. As soon as I got there he asked, "So, why aren't you in a good mood."
I asked sarcastically, "Why do you think?"
"Because of Annoying Friend." He obviously didn't say 'Annoying Friend" lol
I just flashed my eyebrows up and down quickly indicating a 'Yes' answer.
So he tried to skate around for a little bit. Then he asked if I wanted to go inside. I said, "I guess." So we went in and down to his basement. He got a Wii for Easter so he started playing a hockey game on it. I just sat there and watched...like the good old days.
After the first period on the game was over, he put the controller down. Then he stuck his hand down his pants to "adjust" himself. After he was done I said, "Feel better?" He said with a smile, "A little bit."
Then his mom called down for him to start the dryer or something. When he came out of the laundry room he called my attention towards him. I looked as he was walking toward me...with his hand back down his pants, grinning.
I said with a big grin on my face, "Feel better now?" He again said, "A little bit."
I though about saying, "Would you like some help?" But I decided not to. Then I got thinking that I would say that if he did it again, but he didn't.
After a little bit more of me watching him play virtual hockey, I had to come home to eat dinner. He has baseball practice at 6 p.m., so I doubt I will see him any more today.
I haven't gotten around to reading the comments on the last two posts yet, so if you told me to do something when I saw him next, well I didn't do it. :p
I'm in a good mood again btw. Up the hill on the roller-coaster again. :\
I replied, "Yeah maybe."
After a few minutes he said, "Well... Are you?"
"I don't know. Every time I do an idiot shows up."
"I don't think anyone is coming back."
"Fine, I'll be over in a minute. But I'm not in the best of moods now."
So I went over with the skates. As soon as I got there he asked, "So, why aren't you in a good mood."
I asked sarcastically, "Why do you think?"
"Because of Annoying Friend." He obviously didn't say 'Annoying Friend" lol
I just flashed my eyebrows up and down quickly indicating a 'Yes' answer.
So he tried to skate around for a little bit. Then he asked if I wanted to go inside. I said, "I guess." So we went in and down to his basement. He got a Wii for Easter so he started playing a hockey game on it. I just sat there and watched...like the good old days.
After the first period on the game was over, he put the controller down. Then he stuck his hand down his pants to "adjust" himself. After he was done I said, "Feel better?" He said with a smile, "A little bit."
Then his mom called down for him to start the dryer or something. When he came out of the laundry room he called my attention towards him. I looked as he was walking toward me...with his hand back down his pants, grinning.
I said with a big grin on my face, "Feel better now?" He again said, "A little bit."
I though about saying, "Would you like some help?" But I decided not to. Then I got thinking that I would say that if he did it again, but he didn't.
After a little bit more of me watching him play virtual hockey, I had to come home to eat dinner. He has baseball practice at 6 p.m., so I doubt I will see him any more today.
I haven't gotten around to reading the comments on the last two posts yet, so if you told me to do something when I saw him next, well I didn't do it. :p
I'm in a good mood again btw. Up the hill on the roller-coaster again. :\
Friday, April 10, 2009
Maundy Thursday and Good Friday
Just a couple interesting things to report for now. I won't blog too much until everyone gets back from vacation.
Yesterday was Maundy Thursday. I had a dentist appointment in the early evening and church in the later evening. Mom and I both had an appointment so we rode together. We pulled into the dentist office's driveway when I saw a white van. I said to myself, "Oh no! Please don't let that be him!" Going into the reception room I noticed only a woman waiting. I thought, "There are a lot of people who come to this dentist. More than one of them must have a white van. It can't possibly be him."
After about 5 minutes of waiting I heard him! Then Alex's friend came out of the back "work" area. Why did the most annoying of Alex's friends have to be there at the exact same time I was? To make matters worse, his mother is one of those people who has to talk to everyone about everything. My mom was already back getting worked on, so I was there alone with his mother when the kid came out. His mom went back to pay, while I was forced to talk to him. Ugh. Like I said, his mother just had to carry on a conversation with the receptionist. -_-
The interesting thing about our little "chat" came when he said, "So, why don't you hang out with Alex anymore."
I said, "I don't know. Ask him." He just said, "Okay." From there the convo went from this and that until FINALLY his mother came back to take him home. Whew what a relief!
Like I've said before, you really can't understand how I feel about him and why unless you have been around him. The only words that can describe him are; rude, annoying, loud mouthed, immature, and undesirable. lol
While I was getting worked on I got to watch the funeral service for the three police officers shot and killed in Pittsburgh last weekend. My brother went down there cos he is a police officer too. They said officers from as far away as; Florida, Canada, California, Australia, and New Zealand came to take part in the funeral procession. Also President Obama had condolence letters hand delivered to the three families.
R.I.P. Officers Eric Kelly, Stephen Mayhle, and Paul Sciullo III
On our way home I asked Mom if she could help out with the lawn mowing thing since she used to work as a landscaper during the summer. She said she would help if I needed it. Alex still hasn't given me a yes or no answer (big surprise). He probably won't help for whatever reason.
...Stupid...
A couple of interesting thing happened during the church service. During the first hymn, the front doors opened and closed again. So someone came in. I can see who walks in the front doors which are over my left shoulder, but I didn't look. Then after the hymn was done the person left without even coming in the sanctuary and sitting down. o_O
Then we were in the middle of something or another when I hear the back door open and close. Then it opened and closed a few minutes later again. You can't see the back door from where I was in sitting, but someone on the other side of the sanctuary said they saw someone stand in the office then leave. o_O O_o
Just after the sermon started another person came in. This time an older man came in and sat down near Alex and I. Then after a few minutes he got up and left. o_O O_o o_O
wtf was all that about?!?!?!
One other interesting thing that happened during the sermon:
Alex nodged me with his elbow and whispered, "There is something in your hair. Look at me." I turned my head to look at him. He ran his fingers through my hair! He just didn't pluck something out of my hair, he actually ran his fingers through my hair!
*melts*
I got a little tipsy on the wine that was served. Even though it was just a little bit, I still felt weird after drinking it. I was slightly wobbly when I walked, and I was clumsy. Then when I drove home, we have to go up a hill. I was pressing the pedal but we were still slowing down. I looked down and realized I was pressing the brake pedal instead of the gas pedal. Doh!
Okay enough of yesterday news. Let's move on to today.
Not much to report for today. A lot of Good Friday church stuff that I won't go into cos it is irrelevant.
The only interesting thing that happened today was when I was home alone. Dad went up to the church to finish up stuff. So what does a 17 year old with a laptop (or any other computer) do when they are home alone for awhile? ;)
I had just started masturbating when I got a text message. I looked at the name and it said, "Alex." I almost had an orgasm! Then I read it and found it was actually from his sister who was using Alex's phone. MAJOR TURN OFF!
So I replied to it and went back to pleasuring myself. After I got into it again, SHE TEXTED ME AGAIN! I replied again, and had to restart once again. Then I came close to finishing WHEN SHE TEXTED ME ONCE AGAIN!!!!! FFS!!!!!!!!
After I replied, I turned the phone off. Then I had to start from the beginning again. -_- I'll have to tell Alex this story :p
Well that's about it I guess...
Oh, Happy Easter if I don't talk to you before then!
Yesterday was Maundy Thursday. I had a dentist appointment in the early evening and church in the later evening. Mom and I both had an appointment so we rode together. We pulled into the dentist office's driveway when I saw a white van. I said to myself, "Oh no! Please don't let that be him!" Going into the reception room I noticed only a woman waiting. I thought, "There are a lot of people who come to this dentist. More than one of them must have a white van. It can't possibly be him."
After about 5 minutes of waiting I heard him! Then Alex's friend came out of the back "work" area. Why did the most annoying of Alex's friends have to be there at the exact same time I was? To make matters worse, his mother is one of those people who has to talk to everyone about everything. My mom was already back getting worked on, so I was there alone with his mother when the kid came out. His mom went back to pay, while I was forced to talk to him. Ugh. Like I said, his mother just had to carry on a conversation with the receptionist. -_-
The interesting thing about our little "chat" came when he said, "So, why don't you hang out with Alex anymore."
I said, "I don't know. Ask him." He just said, "Okay." From there the convo went from this and that until FINALLY his mother came back to take him home. Whew what a relief!
Like I've said before, you really can't understand how I feel about him and why unless you have been around him. The only words that can describe him are; rude, annoying, loud mouthed, immature, and undesirable. lol
While I was getting worked on I got to watch the funeral service for the three police officers shot and killed in Pittsburgh last weekend. My brother went down there cos he is a police officer too. They said officers from as far away as; Florida, Canada, California, Australia, and New Zealand came to take part in the funeral procession. Also President Obama had condolence letters hand delivered to the three families.
R.I.P. Officers Eric Kelly, Stephen Mayhle, and Paul Sciullo III
On our way home I asked Mom if she could help out with the lawn mowing thing since she used to work as a landscaper during the summer. She said she would help if I needed it. Alex still hasn't given me a yes or no answer (big surprise). He probably won't help for whatever reason.
...Stupid...
A couple of interesting thing happened during the church service. During the first hymn, the front doors opened and closed again. So someone came in. I can see who walks in the front doors which are over my left shoulder, but I didn't look. Then after the hymn was done the person left without even coming in the sanctuary and sitting down. o_O
Then we were in the middle of something or another when I hear the back door open and close. Then it opened and closed a few minutes later again. You can't see the back door from where I was in sitting, but someone on the other side of the sanctuary said they saw someone stand in the office then leave. o_O O_o
Just after the sermon started another person came in. This time an older man came in and sat down near Alex and I. Then after a few minutes he got up and left. o_O O_o o_O
wtf was all that about?!?!?!
One other interesting thing that happened during the sermon:
Alex nodged me with his elbow and whispered, "There is something in your hair. Look at me." I turned my head to look at him. He ran his fingers through my hair! He just didn't pluck something out of my hair, he actually ran his fingers through my hair!
*melts*
I got a little tipsy on the wine that was served. Even though it was just a little bit, I still felt weird after drinking it. I was slightly wobbly when I walked, and I was clumsy. Then when I drove home, we have to go up a hill. I was pressing the pedal but we were still slowing down. I looked down and realized I was pressing the brake pedal instead of the gas pedal. Doh!
Okay enough of yesterday news. Let's move on to today.
Not much to report for today. A lot of Good Friday church stuff that I won't go into cos it is irrelevant.
The only interesting thing that happened today was when I was home alone. Dad went up to the church to finish up stuff. So what does a 17 year old with a laptop (or any other computer) do when they are home alone for awhile? ;)
I had just started masturbating when I got a text message. I looked at the name and it said, "Alex." I almost had an orgasm! Then I read it and found it was actually from his sister who was using Alex's phone. MAJOR TURN OFF!
So I replied to it and went back to pleasuring myself. After I got into it again, SHE TEXTED ME AGAIN! I replied again, and had to restart once again. Then I came close to finishing WHEN SHE TEXTED ME ONCE AGAIN!!!!! FFS!!!!!!!!
After I replied, I turned the phone off. Then I had to start from the beginning again. -_- I'll have to tell Alex this story :p
Well that's about it I guess...
Oh, Happy Easter if I don't talk to you before then!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Evening With Alex
Whew! What a busy day!
Dad and I spent most of the afternoon at my brother's. We didn't get back until around 4ish.
After awhile at home, I was starting to get bored (what a surprise!). I started looking out the window occasionally looking to see if Alex was out. Unfortunately he was.....with his other friends. It's hard to explain why I don't like them unless you have seen them and been around them. They are just sooo immature, and it's not worth being around them even if Alex is there.
At one point I got up to get a drink in the kitchen. I looked out the window and I saw his friends were leaving (yay!). I noticed it was nearing dinnertime and figured that's why they were going. Dad had driven me to Taco Bell after we left my brother's so I wasn't at all hungry.
I went back to my laptop in the living room. I realized I had gotten so distracted by Alex's friends leaving (and was glad they were) that I had forgotten about getting my drink. On my way back out to the kitchen I glanced out the other windows looking out the side of the house. You can see part of Alex's driveway out those windows.
To my surprise, he was still out playing hockey with his sister. After a little debating with myself, I decided to go over. After I stepped out the door, I got really nervous. So I started stalling myself with little things outside. My legs finally solidified from their jelly form (meaning I stopped being nervous), and I went over.
He was playing hockey with his little sister (who was trying desperately to play). I ended up kicking the puck around with my foot like the other night when I was over last. Soon he had to go eat dinner, and I went back home. I told him I would be around if he wanted me to come back. He said, "I'll be back out if a little bit."
Dad went off to Bible Study and I was left alone with the dogs and cats. Finally I saw Alex back outside and I went back over (without much nervousness). His sister was (attempting) to play basketball while Alex and I played around with the hockey puck. Again I had to sacrifice my feet and toes. LOL
It was starting to get dark out when someone showed up at his house. I had no idea who it was. It was a guy, his wife, and their little girl. I guess they were friends of Alex's dad. They were there to buy an old bike that used to belong to Alex's sister when she was little.
The visitor's little girl (I'm talking like 4 or 5) started to become the center of attention. Alex started playing hockey with her. I was left standing by his dad's truck. Apparently the little girl had too much excitement. She got sick right there in the driveway! Ewww. It was soooooooo groossss.
*shudders*
I don't have a weak stomach so I can take it, but it did feel a little weird then. Alex apparently does not have a strong stomach. He came back and stood with me behind his dad's truck. That's where the best thing of the whole night happened.
His dad has a pickup truck and we were standing at the back end. I was leaning against the tailgate with my arms stretched out on the top of the tailgate. Alex was pacing in front me telling some story. I wasn't really paying much attention cos I was staring at him, or rather his shorts which don't conceal bulges well :p. NOTE: This was not a boner bulge. Just a non-boner bulge I guess you can say. So don't jump to any conclusions. *cough NG cough* :p
Anywho, I don't remember exactly how it happened, but he came up beside me (facing the truck, not out away from it like I was), and put his arm and hand in exactly the same spot I had mine. So, his arm and hand were on top of mine.
*melts*
He picked up his arm and said "sorry" and continued pacing in front of me. I don't remember if I said anything back to him or not. I don't even remember how I reacted. My mind was just wandering everywhere at that point. I was trying to figure out if he did that on purpose, or if it was really an accident. :p
After a bit more of his pacing and a bit more of my staring, the other people around had gotten the driveway cleaned up. Soon enough they left. Everyone from Alex's family went inside, leaving us alone. Unfortunately, he realized what time it was (8:30 p.m.), and said he had to go in and do homework.
As he was going in he said, "See ya."
I responded, "Uh-huh" as I was walking out of his driveway. The "uh huh" was not in a sarcastic tone or anything. Not like "Uh huh, sure you will *rolls eyes*" it was just an "Uh huh" meant like an "Okay." Lol, is that confusing?
So, that was that.
Don't forget to read the other post I made today if you haven't already.
Dad and I spent most of the afternoon at my brother's. We didn't get back until around 4ish.
After awhile at home, I was starting to get bored (what a surprise!). I started looking out the window occasionally looking to see if Alex was out. Unfortunately he was.....with his other friends. It's hard to explain why I don't like them unless you have seen them and been around them. They are just sooo immature, and it's not worth being around them even if Alex is there.
At one point I got up to get a drink in the kitchen. I looked out the window and I saw his friends were leaving (yay!). I noticed it was nearing dinnertime and figured that's why they were going. Dad had driven me to Taco Bell after we left my brother's so I wasn't at all hungry.
I went back to my laptop in the living room. I realized I had gotten so distracted by Alex's friends leaving (and was glad they were) that I had forgotten about getting my drink. On my way back out to the kitchen I glanced out the other windows looking out the side of the house. You can see part of Alex's driveway out those windows.
To my surprise, he was still out playing hockey with his sister. After a little debating with myself, I decided to go over. After I stepped out the door, I got really nervous. So I started stalling myself with little things outside. My legs finally solidified from their jelly form (meaning I stopped being nervous), and I went over.
He was playing hockey with his little sister (who was trying desperately to play). I ended up kicking the puck around with my foot like the other night when I was over last. Soon he had to go eat dinner, and I went back home. I told him I would be around if he wanted me to come back. He said, "I'll be back out if a little bit."
Dad went off to Bible Study and I was left alone with the dogs and cats. Finally I saw Alex back outside and I went back over (without much nervousness). His sister was (attempting) to play basketball while Alex and I played around with the hockey puck. Again I had to sacrifice my feet and toes. LOL
It was starting to get dark out when someone showed up at his house. I had no idea who it was. It was a guy, his wife, and their little girl. I guess they were friends of Alex's dad. They were there to buy an old bike that used to belong to Alex's sister when she was little.
The visitor's little girl (I'm talking like 4 or 5) started to become the center of attention. Alex started playing hockey with her. I was left standing by his dad's truck. Apparently the little girl had too much excitement. She got sick right there in the driveway! Ewww. It was soooooooo groossss.
*shudders*
I don't have a weak stomach so I can take it, but it did feel a little weird then. Alex apparently does not have a strong stomach. He came back and stood with me behind his dad's truck. That's where the best thing of the whole night happened.
His dad has a pickup truck and we were standing at the back end. I was leaning against the tailgate with my arms stretched out on the top of the tailgate. Alex was pacing in front me telling some story. I wasn't really paying much attention cos I was staring at him, or rather his shorts which don't conceal bulges well :p. NOTE: This was not a boner bulge. Just a non-boner bulge I guess you can say. So don't jump to any conclusions. *cough NG cough* :p
Anywho, I don't remember exactly how it happened, but he came up beside me (facing the truck, not out away from it like I was), and put his arm and hand in exactly the same spot I had mine. So, his arm and hand were on top of mine.
*melts*
He picked up his arm and said "sorry" and continued pacing in front of me. I don't remember if I said anything back to him or not. I don't even remember how I reacted. My mind was just wandering everywhere at that point. I was trying to figure out if he did that on purpose, or if it was really an accident. :p
After a bit more of his pacing and a bit more of my staring, the other people around had gotten the driveway cleaned up. Soon enough they left. Everyone from Alex's family went inside, leaving us alone. Unfortunately, he realized what time it was (8:30 p.m.), and said he had to go in and do homework.
As he was going in he said, "See ya."
I responded, "Uh-huh" as I was walking out of his driveway. The "uh huh" was not in a sarcastic tone or anything. Not like "Uh huh, sure you will *rolls eyes*" it was just an "Uh huh" meant like an "Okay." Lol, is that confusing?
So, that was that.
Don't forget to read the other post I made today if you haven't already.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Long Day...Long Post Too...
Today was soooo busy and long. My feet hurt really bad right now. Anyone want to give me a foot massage? :p
First off there was church. I was playing pocket pool (as usual), and I a got a boner, which rarely happens when I'm playing pocket pool. I looked down and realized how obviously it was that I had one. I let out a little laugh. Alex asked what I was laughing at. I wrote on a piece of paper, "I have a boner." He smiled and rolled his eyes...Until I looked away. Then I saw out of the corner of my eye that he turned back to look at me, or more specifically my pants. :p
By that time I had lost the boner. Seeing that he was looking for it, I scratched out "have" on the piece of paper and wrote "had" in it's place.
I wasn't sure if he was really looking for the bulge in my pants or not. So, I decided to test it. There was just enough time left to get another one. When I had one I scratched out "had" and wrote "have" again. He smiled and rolled his eyes again. I looked away, and sure enough he looked back at me. :p
Then I wrote on the piece of paper, "I'm a little horny." He whispered in a sarcastic tone, "A little?" By then the sermon was done.
Okay that takes care of the church part. Now on to the Easter egg hiding.
I had to drive dad home first so he could get the dogs out. When I came back there were still two ladies there covering the tables for the dinner tonight. Alex and I started hiding eggs in the sanctuary and elsewhere.
Finally the two ladies left. I don't know if the thought of being alone got to his head or what. But he started making those sexual jokes teenagers think are the funniest things in the world. To my surprise most of them were male related. Like for example, a lot of the eggs were still wet and sticky (the kids just colored them an hour before we hid them). I commented about it (not meaning it in a sexual way). I said that the eggs were wet and they were making my hands sticky. He twisted that around so what I said had nothing to do with Easter Egg Dye, but rather about cum
*rolls eyes*
This went one the whole time we were hiding eggs (an hour). At one point I said, "Now who is the horny one?" He laughed and said, "Yeah, I am...kinda."
I was really surprised that just about none of the jokes were female related. If that even makes sense. I don't know how else to describe it.
Finally we left. When I pulled into the driveway, I half expected him to invite me over to his house. But he didn't. :( I think he was supposed to help his mom cook stuff for the dinner anyway.
Let me just say something a little off topic. 108 hard boiled eggs are very hard to hide in our church. On top of that we had about as many plastic eggs. OMG there was no place to hide them!! Finally Alex and I stood on one end of the sanctuary and just threw the plastic eggs and left them where they landed. LOL
Okay now on to the dinner. Oh, but before I do, I thought you would like to know that I got rid of my hornyness after I got back home ;) But it seems to have come back :D
Okay so the dinner, Easter egg hunt and all that went well too. Alex and I were too busy making sure all the real eggs were found. We don't want them to spoil and stink up the place. Unfortunately, one egg was not found. Not by the kids, and not by the egg hiders. LOL
So after all that everyone went home. When Dad and I FINALLY got home, Alex was out playing hockey all by himself despite the drizzle of rain and the darkness. Usually I won't go over, even if he is alone, without an invitation. It's just some silly thing I have in my head.
This time, however, I broke my rule. I went over. And it was great. For me anyway. We played hockey together for a little bit (he had a stick. I just used my feet to kick the puck), and we talked.
Before he went inside, he said, "See ya.... Whenever I guess."
Oh, and Alex is defiantly gay. four reasons:
1. We were calculating how many eggs we had to hide. My cell phone's calculator won't calculate if the memory is full. The memory was full this time cos I had too many pictures on the phone. Once I had a picture of my "little friend" (well not little :p) on the phone. Alex saw it and was like this :D.
This was like a year ago.
Anywho back to today. I had to erase the pics I had on the phone. I said about one picture, "Whoa, I better erase that one. I don't want anyone seeing that." Implying that it was of my one-eyed snake (it really wasn't). He said excitedly, "Let me see!" But I had already erased it.
2. He giggles like a girl a bunch of times. I have also started doing that instead of my normal laugh.
3. He was talking with his one hand on his hip. In the "gay" pose. But he wasn't acting gay or talking gay. Whenever he was doing that, I thought, "OMG, that is so gay."
4. I swear he looks at me while I'm playing pocket pool.
Hmmm.
Lol
I doubt that means anything. They were just things that I took notice of today.
First off there was church. I was playing pocket pool (as usual), and I a got a boner, which rarely happens when I'm playing pocket pool. I looked down and realized how obviously it was that I had one. I let out a little laugh. Alex asked what I was laughing at. I wrote on a piece of paper, "I have a boner." He smiled and rolled his eyes...Until I looked away. Then I saw out of the corner of my eye that he turned back to look at me, or more specifically my pants. :p
By that time I had lost the boner. Seeing that he was looking for it, I scratched out "have" on the piece of paper and wrote "had" in it's place.
I wasn't sure if he was really looking for the bulge in my pants or not. So, I decided to test it. There was just enough time left to get another one. When I had one I scratched out "had" and wrote "have" again. He smiled and rolled his eyes again. I looked away, and sure enough he looked back at me. :p
Then I wrote on the piece of paper, "I'm a little horny." He whispered in a sarcastic tone, "A little?" By then the sermon was done.
Okay that takes care of the church part. Now on to the Easter egg hiding.
I had to drive dad home first so he could get the dogs out. When I came back there were still two ladies there covering the tables for the dinner tonight. Alex and I started hiding eggs in the sanctuary and elsewhere.
Finally the two ladies left. I don't know if the thought of being alone got to his head or what. But he started making those sexual jokes teenagers think are the funniest things in the world. To my surprise most of them were male related. Like for example, a lot of the eggs were still wet and sticky (the kids just colored them an hour before we hid them). I commented about it (not meaning it in a sexual way). I said that the eggs were wet and they were making my hands sticky. He twisted that around so what I said had nothing to do with Easter Egg Dye, but rather about cum
*rolls eyes*
This went one the whole time we were hiding eggs (an hour). At one point I said, "Now who is the horny one?" He laughed and said, "Yeah, I am...kinda."
I was really surprised that just about none of the jokes were female related. If that even makes sense. I don't know how else to describe it.
Finally we left. When I pulled into the driveway, I half expected him to invite me over to his house. But he didn't. :( I think he was supposed to help his mom cook stuff for the dinner anyway.
Let me just say something a little off topic. 108 hard boiled eggs are very hard to hide in our church. On top of that we had about as many plastic eggs. OMG there was no place to hide them!! Finally Alex and I stood on one end of the sanctuary and just threw the plastic eggs and left them where they landed. LOL
Okay now on to the dinner. Oh, but before I do, I thought you would like to know that I got rid of my hornyness after I got back home ;) But it seems to have come back :D
Okay so the dinner, Easter egg hunt and all that went well too. Alex and I were too busy making sure all the real eggs were found. We don't want them to spoil and stink up the place. Unfortunately, one egg was not found. Not by the kids, and not by the egg hiders. LOL
So after all that everyone went home. When Dad and I FINALLY got home, Alex was out playing hockey all by himself despite the drizzle of rain and the darkness. Usually I won't go over, even if he is alone, without an invitation. It's just some silly thing I have in my head.
This time, however, I broke my rule. I went over. And it was great. For me anyway. We played hockey together for a little bit (he had a stick. I just used my feet to kick the puck), and we talked.
Before he went inside, he said, "See ya.... Whenever I guess."
Oh, and Alex is defiantly gay. four reasons:
1. We were calculating how many eggs we had to hide. My cell phone's calculator won't calculate if the memory is full. The memory was full this time cos I had too many pictures on the phone. Once I had a picture of my "little friend" (well not little :p) on the phone. Alex saw it and was like this :D.
This was like a year ago.
Anywho back to today. I had to erase the pics I had on the phone. I said about one picture, "Whoa, I better erase that one. I don't want anyone seeing that." Implying that it was of my one-eyed snake (it really wasn't). He said excitedly, "Let me see!" But I had already erased it.
2. He giggles like a girl a bunch of times. I have also started doing that instead of my normal laugh.
3. He was talking with his one hand on his hip. In the "gay" pose. But he wasn't acting gay or talking gay. Whenever he was doing that, I thought, "OMG, that is so gay."
4. I swear he looks at me while I'm playing pocket pool.
Hmmm.
Lol
I doubt that means anything. They were just things that I took notice of today.
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