Poll Results

First, I posted already today so go read that one too.

Also, I just got back from Alex's (actually an hour ago now). He did things again that would suggest he's not straight. But I'm not even gonna worry about it too much. I'll just get all confused again lol.

I asked him if he wanted me to come back after I finished dinner. He said, "I don't know. I'll let you know later."

Well, he hasn't said anything yet so...

There is a hockey game on tonight, so he'll be watching that. That means he probably won't want to sit outside.

Also, I'm not really thinking about going back to my old school again. I really don't think I could wake up at 4:45 every morning, and still be able to think and stuff.


Poll Results:

26 of you said your are 100% gay.

I read somewhere that no one is 100% straight or gay. Well, I guess you guys thing you are :p

11 said that they are gay, but slightly attracted to the opposite sex.

I picked this one. I have been attracted to numerous girls throughout my short life. In fact, there are still a few out there I wouldn't mind dating. However, that's as far as I would go. Bottom line is, I'm attracted to some females but not in a sexual way.

4 people said gay, but moderately attracted to the opposite sex.

10 people said they are bi, but leaning more toward gay.

I was this at one point.

2 people say they are equally attracted to both sexes.

No one said they are bi, but leaning towards being straight.

3 people categorized themselves as being mostly straight, with one of those three saying they are 100% straight.

That's kinda interesting lol.

Another Dream AND Some Other Things

Last night around 10ish, I decided to go for a run with the dogs.

*Gasp*

Me? Exercising?

Lol

I took Skylar first. We ran from the boat to the road and back 5 times (Dad says thats about 100 feet each way). Then I got chubbs and ran the same thing. It didn't last long, but it really helped clear my head of all the things I was thinking about yesterday.

Afterwords, I got the idea to wake up at 5am this morning and walk up to the church and back (the long ways of course). Dad says the way I planned to go would be about a mile or more.

I set my phone to go off at 4:45.

Once 4:45 came around and the alarm went off, I was ready to get up and go. Then I noticed it was a little dark outside still. So I made the mistake of hitting the snooze button. Five minutes later, the phone went off again. Again, I hit the snooze button. Every five minutes up until 5am, I hit the snooze button. Once at 5, I was too tired to get up. So I reset the alarm to go off at 8am.

Somewhere between 5 and 8, I had this interesting dream. I don't remember how it started, so I'll just skip to the good parts :D

Somehow, Alex and I were in my room behind a closed door...

...OMG, this sounds so weird now...

Anyway, he was dressed only in underwear lol. Eventually, we both started rubbing each other and kissing.

Then we get interrupted...

...by the evil queen from Snow White ffs!

I guess she took Dad's place. She was making pizza, but she kept calling it lasagna (oddly enough, it looked like the same pizza Mom brought last week. Also I ate lasagna the other day).

Anywho, Alex and I hid under the covers on my bed. There we gave each other handjobs. We ended up cumming at the same time lol.

After we got done, we both locked ourselves in the bathroom and cleaned up. Then before he left, I asked

"Did you do all this because you like me? Or because you're just horny?"

He answered, "Just because I was horny." Then he left. That's when I woke up.

Gah!

Can't he even like me in my dreams ffs!!!!????!!!!


Okay, enough about that.

Today in church, I stuck my hand down my pants.

^_^

I didn't do anything while it was down there. My hands were just cold lol.

Oh!

I forgot to tell you.

Yesterday, I sent a text message to all my old friends whos' numbers I have. It said, "Thought you'd like to know that I'm seriously considering coming back to [enter city name here] for my senior year."

Some time after, I was just looking at my sent messages. I realized that I had accidently sent that text to Alex too!

:\

I actually wasn't going to tell him cos I don't really know what to say to him if he askes.

He didn't say anything about it in church today so...

Well, I think that is all I have to report for now.


Btw

Someone asked in the comments, so I guess I should also report that nothing has been done about the neighbor's animals yet.

Need Help With a Problem.

Alright, here we go again.

Like I said in the edited version of the last post, Alex and I didn't sit out last night. He never said anything about it. In fact, I haven't heard from him since Monday.

It's just a little thing, but I've been hurt again. Even though I wasn't really expecting anything, I still got hurt. Like I said, it's just a little thing. But it's a little thing in a long list of other things that have hurt me. I guess that's why it hurts so much. I don't really know.

As usual, my head is swimming with thoughts right now about it all. Once again I'm thinking about just giving up on him totally. If I had a penny for everytime I've thought that, I would be a very rich person. Anyway, it's driving me crazy again. The only way to solve this problem is to eliminate the source. There are two ways to do that:

1. Kill him

2. Kill myself

3. Get away from him

Obviously I'm not going to choose number one or two lol.

I'm seriously thinking about going back to my old school. The problem with that is that I have to wake up at 4:45 every morning five days in a row. I don't know if I can do that or not. I slept for 12 hours after waking up at 4:45 yesterday. However, I think once I get into the habit of it I could probably do it.

Why do I have to wake up so early you ask?

Because Mom and I both really don't want to move again. We have moved 6 times since her and Dad got divorced 10 years ago.

I can still live with Dad, but that means living right across the street from Alex which doesn't really solve anything. Or I can move in with Mom. She's right up the hill so I will be away from Alex. I can still go to church, and also visit Dad.

I do miss my old friends. When I think about it, I can't believe how dumb I was from choosing Alex over all of them. Since I already know everyone there, I won't have to go through "the new kid" thing.

I don't know what I should do.

Sorry for always complaining when Alex does something like this. I'm sure you must think it's getting old by now. I'm thinking the same thing about this whole thing with me and Alex.

I'd appreciate any thoughts you have. I haven't made up my mind yet about what I want to do. Your suggestions are welcome.

::EDITED:: Lock Down, Bomb Threat and Evacuation

Whoa! What a day! And it isn't over yet!

First up, Lock Down:

It was about 12:30 p.m. when the principal got on the PA System and announced that all students must go back to and/or stay in their current class until further notice. This lasted for 45 minutes.

Apparently two boys got into a fight. While two teachers were trying to separate them, one of the kids punched one of the teachers in the face. That student then ran off. That's why they locked the school down (literally).


~ 15 minutes later ~

The principal got back on the PA System and said that everyone must evacuate up to the football stadium. He also announced that if you went past your locker, you should get everything you need for the weekend because no one will be allowed back in the building for some time. This told us that something was seriously wrong.

We were out there for an hour before Mom and I could leave. We never did wait for them to finish sweeping the school. We had everything we needed anyway.

The rumors are that someone wrote a bomb threat in the 9th grade boy's bathroom. That's only a rumor so...

Today was senior's last day of classes. They were all crazy today. The principal was not happy at all!


So that's pretty much all that happened today so far. Now I'm just waiting for Alex to text me to go over on his porch. That won't be for a few hours yet though...

... If it happens at all...

I guess I've come to not get my hopes up when it comes to us. But who knows...


::EDIT::

Well, it's now almost 10pm and not a word from Alex. So... yeah...

I can't say I'm surprised tho.


Oh, I will say that it was nice seeing all my old friends again. Especially the cute boys :p

Going for a Visit

Ashley keeps bugging me to go and visit soon before the end of school. So I'm going to go out there on Friday. That means I've gotta wake up at 5 a.m. and be on the road by 6ish to get there by 7.

-_-

At least Mom will be driving cos I'm not comfortable driving on the interstate yet.

So if you're on I-80 going west on Friday between 6 and 7, make sure you honk if you see me :p


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Since this post really doesn't have much point and since I won't be posting for a few more days, I'll include my new favorite music for your enjoyment.

Ha!

As if anyone will listen to them anyway.


The man on the left in the 10th picture is the real Stauffenberg's grandson. Also the pic from 2:08 isn't even from the movie lol. Not sure why it's in there :\




This is my favorite. I love the use of the percussion instruments (I think that's what they are).




Love the percussion in this one too.


Seated left to right are:

Colonel Albrecht Mertz von Quirnheim (executed by firing squad on July 20, 1944), General Friedrich Olbricht (executed by firing squad on July 20, 1944), General Field Marshal (ret.) Erwin von Witzleben (executed by hanging on August 8, 1944).

Standing left to right are:

Dr. Carl Friedrich Goerdeler (executed by hanging on February 2, 1945), Colonel Claus von Stauffenberg (executed by firing squad on July 20, 1944), General (ret.) Ludwig Beck (executed after two failed attempts to kill himself on July 20, 1944), General Henning von Tresckow (committed suicide by blowing himself up with a hand granade on July 21, 1944).


This music plays throughout the first scene with Hitler:


Standing in the middle is Lieutenant Werner von Haeften (executed by firing squad on July 20, 1944)


These ones play throughout the scenes at The Wolf's Lair on July 20th (i.e. the day of the assassination attempt)





This is played as the conspirators are being executed/arrested:

Heard Back From the PSPCA

They said they would give my complaint to the Western Humane Society (wherever that is). They also named the officer it would be given to. Something they didn't do before.

So I guess this means progress.

Good Times... Goooooood Times...

Alex asked me over this evening at 7:34. I left his place 2 hours later. That's the longest time I've been over there for a looong time.

We were outside most of the time (not on the porch). After awhile, the couple I saw making out in my front yard yesterday came down the road (the ugly girl and the CUTE boy). Alex asked me if I saw them yesterday. We talked for a little about them. His sister was out with us. At one point I said, "One of them is really ugly. The other one is...well not so ugly." Since his sister was out there I didn't want to say the girl was ugly (tho Alex later said that she was ugly). I told him what else they were doing besides making out.

It was about 9 when he said he was going in. I thought that was going to be it for the night, and that I could go home. Then he asked me if I wanted to go inside with him. Of course I did. Nothing much happened inside. He was playing some baseball video game. You could customize your player's appearance. He showed me what his character looked like.

He asked, "Aren't I pretty?"

O_O

I just said, "No comment."

Then once 9:30 rolled around, he said he had to go take a shower and get ready for bed since he has school tomorrow.

He said, "Maybe we can sit out on the porch Friday night if it's nice... if you want to."

"Sure."

He offered to carry the hockey net over for me, but I could manage it myself.


So...

Yeah...

That's all I have to report I guess.

Interesting Happenings From Today AND Thank You

Interesting Things that Happened Today:

1. At church the psycho lady was there.

Okay, okay. I probably shouldn't be calling her psycho cos she's really not. That's just what Alex called her last year, and it's just kinda stuck (he also named the organist "Elbows" but that's another story).

This lady is one those that thinks people are after her. Do you know what I mean? I can't think of the correct term.

Anywho, she usually sits in the very back with Alex and I. Well, today Alex and I were kinda hogging the pew. Not because she was there. In fact, she came in awhile after we sat down. She sat in the pew in front of us that is normally occupied by some other people who are on vacation.

The funny part is; everytime Alex and I moved, she would look back at us. She probably thought I was gonna strangle her with piano wire *evil laugh.* Yeah, that's not funny :\


2. Alex and I barely said two words to each other in church.

3. I've been watching Valkyrie, and studying the whole plot and it's members. Especially Claus von Stauffenberg. The man lost his right hand, left eye, and the 4th and 5th fingers on his left hand. So, I was going around today trying to do things with only the middle finger, index finger, and thumb of my left hand.

I didn't think it was too difficult... until I had to go to the bathroom :\

4. I sliced the side of my thumb (right hand) open on something late this afternoon.

:(

5. Someone bought a new vacuum cleaner for the church. I got the job of putting it together. I want the job of cleaning the church and cutting the grass (it's a paying job). But everytime I bring it up with Dad, he says the position isn't open.

Look, the guy that does it now doesn't even go to our church anymore. He let's the grass go too long, as well as the dirt and spider webs inside the church. Not to mention the dead flies!

So everytime Dad and I are in the church, I find something to complain about (such as the dead flies). He says, "So clean it." I reply, "Sorry, but it's not my job."

Childish, I know.

6. A PSP (Pennsylvania State Police) unit was over at the neighbor's today. Too bad nobody was home. He knocked on the door and waited a minute or so. Then went and sat in his car for maybe 5 minutes, then left.

I don't think it was about my complaint since I only made it last night, and since it's a holiday weekend.

7. This one's interesting.

Our front yard ends at the edge of a hill. When standing at the edge of it you can see the river, bridge, and also the buildings directly below. The river, bridge, and the other end of the valley are the main attraction.

Well, today a young couple was out there enjoying the view...and each other!

lol

Read my twitter to get more. I'll just say that the boy was CUTE!

:D

8. This one's the most important.

I was sitting out on the stoop reading my latest interest titled, Delivered From Evil. It's a WWII book. It's HUGE! Almost 1,000 pages. I'm only on chapter 4 titled, Adolf Hitler. I just finished the Benito Mussolini chapter last night. It's interesting, but boring at the same time lol.

Anyway, I was sitting out on the stoop. It was just after 9 p.m. I wasn't really reading anymore since it was getting dark. I was actually watching the shirtless guys playing basketball, and also another guy playing tennis.

Alex had had the hockey net earlier, but hadn't brought it back yet. I was kinda hanging around, waiting for him to bring it back thinking, maybe he'll ask me to go sit on his porch with him. After all, he did mention it a two weeks ago (or was it last week?), but still hadn't invited me to go over.

Well he showed up and put the net down. I said, "Thank you." All he said was, "Hey, we'll sit on the porch sometime. Just not tonight cos I have to get up sorta early for a Memorial Day parade we are playing in." I just said, "Alright." and he left.

Damn! He pulled the same stunt last time!

lol

Well, that's it I guess...

Oh!

I just realized there is supposed to be a second part to this post.

The last post I made was my 100th since I started this blog (not counting my old blog).

I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who reads and comments. Especially the ones who comment. I love getting comments.

^_^

Seriously, thanks for reading, giving me advice even tho I don't always follow it, emailing me, talking to me online, etc.

And a big thanks to Naturgesetz, Col, Mr. HCI, and Steevo, AND Courage who have had to put up with me since November. Can you believe it's been almost 7 months?

Don't know what else to say other than thank you again!

Heartbreaking

I sent the following email to the PSPCA (Pennsylvania Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals) 6 months ago:

Dear PSPCA,

I am writing to you today to report a case of animal cruelty.

My neighbors have a number of cats and dogs. They leave two of their dogs tied up outside. The first dog, a German Shepard, is tied up to a tree with only an overturned couch as a shelter. The other dog, not sure of its breed but it looks like a Rottweiler, is tied up to a van with only the van as shelter. It has been very cold and snowy the past few weeks, and our neighbors have not showed any signs of moving the animals indoors.

They have a bunch of other dogs, at least 6, who they TRY to keep inside. Frequently they let these dogs outside. When these dogs are outside they are not tied up, which is illegal in our town. They have barked at and chased people as they were walking by. They have scratched the legs of the person who lives across the street (Alex's mom). This person has made a few complaints to the --------- County dog catcher (or someone like that) and to our town police. However they have never done anything about it.

The neighbors also have a number of cats. I'm not sure how many, but at least 3-5. They rarely let the cats inside. These cats wander all over town.

Something needs to be done soon!!

Please let me know if you can do anything about this.

Thank you,

Peter --------

They sent a reply a few days later that said something like they would be sending an officer to investigate, or something like that. Well, guess what. Nothing has been done as of yet... 6 months later.

So an incident happened about an hour ago that made me email them again:

I wrote to you 6 months ago to report about animal abuse in ------, PA. I have included the original email below this one (above for you).

I was told in a reply email that an officer would be sent to investigate, or something similar to that. Nothing has been done about it so far (to my knowledge anyway). So I'm writing to you again to make some further complaints.

A few weeks ago it rained. Apparently the dog tied to the van didn't have any water. I saw her licking the side of the van as it was raining. It's not really that that bothers me. It's the fact that she has to live in such a horrible condition. I will send pictures if you need them. The area around the van is nothing but dirt, or mud when it rains. The van itself has sunk almost to the bottom of the hubcaps. There is garbage all over the place; especially rusted tin cans (like soup cans). The other dog (German Shepard) still only has an overturned couch as a shelter.

That paragraph makes it sound like I live in the ghetto or something lol. It's only the people next door who live like that around here.

I'd also like to say that since I emailed you some time ago, their dog population has gone up to around 10 or 12.

Also the literal physical abuse hasn't stopped. I don't think I mentioned it in my last email. There is one dog, Penny, who appears to get the worst of it. She is a very cute dog, and it breaks my heart to see her literally beaten. Once she came over to our house (and ate our other dogs food). I was giving her some loving attention (i.e. petting) Let me tell you, it feels like she has scabs all over her.

On one occasion (maybe last fall), she was loose and went into the garage of the people across the street. They scared her out and she ran back over to her house. Well, the boy (around 17 years old) came out. He literally grabbed her by the throat and slammed her against the wall repeatedly while yelling at her.

The most recent physical abuse I witnessed was just a few minutes ago. It broke my heart so much that I just had to write to you again.

They got 4 or 5 kittens (just little things). They keep them in a cat/dog carrier all the time. They don't even let them out to go to the bathroom. In fact, one of the people that lives there was cleaning out the carrier when this happened. The boy I mentioned above was also out. I guess they were done cleaning the carrier. He went around and picked up each one of the kittens by the neck and literally threw them into the cage. He is the most abusive one there. It's really sickening.

Almost everyday there is something that happens to those poor dogs and cats that just rips my heart out. I really wish someone would do something about it all. I'm only 17 so there isn't much I can do except write to you hoping you will come and rescue these poor animals. It really is a shame that much complaining has been done by people who live around here, and nothing has been done.

I mean, it's really sad to say that I recently hoped that the dog tied to the van would die of thirst just so she wouldn't have to live in garbage and mud, and so she would stop suffering.

If you need anything like pictures or anything else, please ask.

I really wish you could/would do something about it,

Peter --------


It's really horrible.

Of course, I failed to mention I kill an average of 10 kittens a week from masturbating.

;)

Today

I tried to post all of this on my Twitter, but it would have turned into a dozen tweets. So I'll just do it here instead.

Yesterday, I had to wear an old Hawaiian shirt of my brothers because I didn't have any of my shirts that were clean. I'm not really into flashy shirts like that or even shirts with pictures or wording on them. I prefer polo shirts for the summer. So today, Dad said we could go shopping for some new shirts.

I bought three new polos. Each a different color; red, blue, and dark blue. I also bought the 2-disk special edition of Valkyrie. Also got some new shoes.

After getting out of the store, we went over to Taco Bell. I got my new favorite. A Chicken Ranch Taco Salad, and a Baja Blast Mountain Dew (which is only sold at Taco Bells. Too bad cos I really like it). Yum! After we got out of the drive thru, and out onto the main road, I realized that they forgot to give me a fork. By that time, it was too late to turn around. So I had to wait 'til we got home to eat it.

-_-

When we got home, Mom called. She had a box of pizza, two Strombolis, and three bottles of soda.

I got my taco salad, and popped in Valkyrie.

Now, two hours later, I'm watching it again. I always watch a movie twice in a row in order to get everything.

I got zero school work done today. I'll just have to work on the weekend.

Nothing else to report for today. But then again, it's not over yet so maybe I'm publishing this too soon...

Happy Birthday Mirrorboy!!

I think the title says it all.

Sorry, I can't offer any cute cats, Axolotls, or boys for you like others have done. So you'll just have to deal with boring words lol.

Rate Your Sexuality

Okay, so I said I wouldn't be posting for awhile.

Well, I lied I guess.

lol

Anywho, I came across this online somewhere. I thought I'd make a poll out of it.



Rate Your Sexuality:

1: Completely straight (not sure there are any of those around here)

2: Straight, but slightly attracted to the same sex

3. Straight, but moderately attracted to the same sex

4: Bisexual, more attracted to the opposite sex

5: Bisexual, attracted to both sexes equally

6: Bisexual, more attracted to the same sex

7: Gay, but moderately attracted to the opposite sex

8: Gay, but slightly attracted to the opposite sex

9: Completely gay


Ok...

I tried to make a poll, but it wouldn't work.

-_-

So just leave a comment until I can get the poll up again.


I'm an 8 btw



Yay!

Got the poll working again...

...for now anyway...

Taking a Break

First I'll answer Col's comment here since he left it while I was typing this.

He asked if I had heard anything from Alex yet after giving him the skates.

Well, like my Twitter says, I was outside for the better part of the evening. For 3 hours or so I think. I took my model stuff out and tinkered around with that for a bit. This is my real model I'm talking about. Not the 3D ones.

I was busy rigging one of the funnels (or smokestacks). It's exactly like threading a needle. I spent 5 minutes just getting the rigging (which is actually string) through the small hole on the funnel. Then I had to use tweezers to pull it the rest of the way. I got 3 out of 6 done when Alex skated past. He shouted, "HEEEYY!!" I was so focused on my model that him shouting startled me. I jumped a little and accidentally dropped the funnel. At which point all the rigging came loose.

-_-

After shouting 'hey' he (still skating on the road) asked, "You working on your model?"

"No. I'm just looking at it." I said slightly annoyed.

"Oh, well I couldn't tell if that's what it was or not." Then he skated off.

Then awhile later I saw him, his sister, and their parents going up to the ball park. There was a game, but none of them were playing.

I stayed out until 9:30, hoping Alex would ask me to go over and sit outside with him, but no such luck. He was too busy hanging around his other friends. It was cold out last night anyway.



Okay, now on to the whole reason for this post.

I need to take a break from blogging and focus more on my school stuff now that finals are approaching. We are starting to get really busy with things.

So I need to keep my mind focused on that instead of on stuff around here.

So that means:

No blogging, or reading other blogs.

No chatting online to ANYONE. I won't even be logged in to my IM or Skype

No emailing anyone from around here. I won't be logged into that either.

No 3D modeling.

No {Enter Other Distractions Here}


I may still update my Twitter occasionally if anything important is going on.

The max time that I will be gone is until June 12th. That is the last day of school for me. I don't know if I'll be busy that whole time or not, so I could be back sooner.

And don't worry. I will be getting plenty of fresh air while I'm working. Ahh, the beauty of wireless internet access.

^_^

In fact, after I get dressed today, I'll be taking my laptop outside to enjoy the 80°F weather (in the shade of course).


Okay, I think that about covers it.

So until next time...

Peter


P.S.

I had this nightmare last night. OMG it was awful!!

Alex and a friend of his (not a real life friend, just one made up in the dream) were staying at my house for some reason. They were sleeping in my room...in my bed....together.

Well anyway, I was spying on them (I like to spy on people lol). And I saw them masturbating together!!!

OMG!!!

It was awful!

Horrible!!

Horrid!!!

I can't imagine a dream more scarier than that! Well, except if it was with....

....a....

...GIRL!!

AHHH!!!!

lol

Okay, I gotta get dressed now and get to work.

See ya later!

Birthday Present

Today is Alex's birthday.

Yay!

I guess...

As my Twitter says, I gave him the skates and $10 in the card.

I saw him out using them already.

He hasn't said 'thank you' yet...

So...

Yeah...

That's all

One thing that annoys me...

...is when people let religion and/or politics run their lives.

It shows in the comments people leave on any news article you read (especially on AOL) about someone coming out, or some other gay related topic. They, more often than not, have to bring religion and/or politics into it.

The people that do this on any and every subject are the really annoying ones.

The most recent example of this was in the news last week. A kid who goes to a Baptist(?) school wanted to go to his girlfriend's school's prom. She went to a 'normal' school. The boy's school said they would suspend him if he went because they are against rock music.

wtf?

They even make the students sign an agreement that says they will not go against the school's policies on what is not allowed even outside of school.

Schools like that (i.e. Catholic schools, Baptist schools, etc...) to me sound like they are bordering brainwashing.

Here's an example on the political end:

I asked Dad what he thought about Global Warming. He said he doesn't think it's real because the democrats make a big deal out of it (he also mentioned Al Gore).

I don't know about you, but I just find people who let religion overly run their lives annoying. Especially when it comes to the point where every, or almost every decision revolves around their religious and/or political beliefs.

The WORST thing is when religion and politics mix. In other words, when politicians make decisions based on what they believe. This can be seen in many things recently such as gay marriage.

I think these people need to stop being so uptight and relax.

I believe in God and call myself a Christian, but I don't let it run my life.

I don't know. Maybe that means I'm a hypocrite?


Okay okay, one more thing that annoys me:

MILEY CYRUS!!!

God! Don't get me started on that spoiled brat...


P.S. Sorry if I offend anyone with this post. It's what I believe so...

Also, I posted on my WWII blog today about Operation Valkyrie, my new favorite WWII subject. I might buy the movie when it comes out tomorrow. I haven't seen it yet, so I'm not sure if it's any good or not.

Bondage: Part 2

Well, I'm back. And I'm still alive.

lol

First they made me wait awhile in the waiting room with nothing on the TV but soap operas.

-_-

Then they took me back to the chair. The nurse lady (I don't think they are called nurses, but that's what I call them) stuck the numbing Q-Tip type thing on the area around the teeth they were working on. After a few minutes, Dr. D came in. He took the numbing thing out and checked out the teeth. He said, "Well, there isn't much for us to do here. It's going to be a piece of cake. You don't even have to be numbed much for this."

So I thought he meant that that Q-Tip numbing thing was going to be it....

...Then he pulls out the shot...

I was shaking slightly to begin with, but when he starting sticking that shot in me, I was shaking uncontrollably (not violently of course lol). I couldn't really feel it, but it still made me a nervous wreck. I guess the worst part about it is that they do it slowly. If they do it fast, it hurts worse I guess.

Okay, so the shots are out of the way. Now he gets the drill out. I'm still trying to control my shakiness the best I can. After he drilled, that was it. He left, and the nurse lady took over.

First she cleaned the surface of one tooth, and isolated it so it didn't get wet. Then she put the bonding stuff on, and adhered it with a blue light (I guess it was ultra-violet). Then she did some other stuff which I really can't describe since I couldn't feel or see it.

Then she did the same with the other tooth.

After both teeth were finished, she polished and cleaned them.

And that was it.

My appointment was at 3:40 and I was out of there a little after 4.

Right now it's a quarter to 5. It's dinner time, my lip feels fat, it's a little hard to talk, I can't really open my mouth cos it feels weird, and I'M STARVING!!!

I hope this numbness doesn't last too long.

Bondage: Part 1

First of all, this post as nothing to do with any sexual activity even though the title may suggest that.

lol

So anywho, last month I had a dentist appointment. They said because of the braces I had, two of my teeth have decalcified. So we made an appointment to get those two teeth bonded.

Well, that appointment is...

...today.

-_-

At 3:40 to be exact.

I'm nervous.

:S

I'll let you know how it goes, and what they did.

No before and after pictures though

;)

XD

I was watching this show on TV a couple nights ago. It just cracks me up so much. After that one night of seeing it on TV, I started watching clips of it on Youtube. I figured I would post some. Even tho no one will comment -_-

:p

The volume varies greatly on these clips. So be ready to turn it down lol. Half the time I just find the audiences reactions funnier.


Newsflash:









Watching this one hurts my privates :p








This one's gross lol




Let's Make a Date:

I put these ones up here cos I think Jeff is kinda cuteish. Needs a haircut tho lol






There's a lot more on Youtube, but it's 1 a.m. and I gotta get up at 8 :\

If you don't find any one of these remotely funny, then there is something seriously wrong with you.

New Poll - Global Warming

I read an article on Yahoo (I think) this morning about a new study on Global Warming. The study was on how much sea levels will rise if/when the West Antarctic ice shelf collapses. So I got thinking, and decided to put a poll up to see what your opinions are on global warming.

I, for one, voted 'yes.'

I'm not an expert and I haven't really taken the time to study much about Global Warming, but from what I hear, I'm inclined to take it seriously. I mean if they say the ice shelves are melting, then obviously there is going to be a rise in ocean levels. That is a no brainer.

So vote and if you want, explain what you think. And please be nice about it. Also, if you can, provide some facts or whatever. It makes your opinion a lot more believable.

:)

WOOT!! I'm in a Good Mood :D

I'm really happy right now!

And it's all over a little thing too lol.

Okay so, I'll start from the beginning I guess.

Today was bloody hot. I was sitting on the front porch (on the side of the house where the sun wasn't at), talking online to Matt and working on my 3D Poseidon model. Earlier I was looking at my unfinished Titanic model (the one that's not 3D), and contemplating starting work on it again. While I was out on the porch, I got the urge to get all the parts; instructions; and whatnot, and go sit out on the back porch (actually called a stoop) to work on it.

So I dragged my laptop, power chord, and a chair out to the other side of the house. IT WAS BURNING HOT! Then I went in and collected all the things for my model and brought them outside as well.

It was around 3:15 p.m.

Soon enough the school bus came through. A few minutes later I saw Alex and his sister walking to their house. After about 10 minutes or so, I couldn't take the heat any longer. The direct sunlight was just too much for me today (it didn't help that I'm wearing a black shirt and jeans). So I gathered up my laptop and model stuff, and went back out to the front porch.

I had just sat down in the cool shade, and started to enjoy the cool air. Then I got a txt msg from Alex wanting the skates.

-_-

I really didn't feel like going back out into the heat. But I did anyway. Just my luck, there wasn't anyplace to sit or stand without being in the sun. Ugh. Alex's friend (not the annoying one) came over after a couple minutes.

Now this one I can get along with perfectly fine. Unless he starts being a jerk. However, this didn't happen today. It's the other one that I can't stand. He is a jerk no matter what.

Anywho, that's all beside the point here.

I wasn't doing anything but sitting there while they were talking about school and people they know doing this or that. Obviously I have no idea who or what they are talking about, so I can't really join in the conversation.

Since I was just sitting there baking in the sun, I decided to just go back home. It was getting close to dinner time anyway.

The evening sun is even hotter than the afternoon sun IMO, so I decided not to go back over. I just sat out on the cool front porch and did some school stuff and chatted online a bit.

Then I get a txt msg from Alex that says, "I'll put the net back and bring the skates back when I get back home. I have to go to a band banquet."

I was thinking, Um...you can bring the net back but not the skates? Then I realized that he probably wants to use them again when he gets back. Duh!

Sure enough, a couple hours later I hear him and his friend back out there. I decided not to go over even though it was getting dark out. When it got completely dark, I went back out to the other side of the house to sit on the stoop.

After 9ish, I saw the not-so-annoying friend (also named Alex btw) go back to his house. I could still hear Alex out there, but I decided to stay put since he had to come to where I was sitting to drop off the skates anyway. And maybe if he saw me sitting out there, he would ask if I wanted to sit with him on his porch like last year.

In a few minutes he came over with the skates in hand. He saw me sitting there and said, "Sitting out here all by yourself?" We talked for a few minutes. About nothing really. Then he started to leave, but then turned back around and said, "We got the swing and chairs back out on our porch. So maybe we can sit out there again at night."

My heart skipped a beat, and I was like :D YES!!!

Then he said, "But not tonight."

DAMN!!

lol

Appearently he has to get up early tomorrow for a baseball game. It starts at 10am, but he obviously has to be there before that. The place is about an hour or 45 mins away too.

So now I'm happy that he wants me to sit outside with him again.

As Matt said, "Well at least you are getting somewhere."

So yeah...

*BIG SMILES*

:D

I've Got an Idea: Part II

So like I told you, the plan I had earlier in the week fell through. For more than one reason, none really because of Alex.

The Pens won the game, so that means there will be other chances to have a pizza party. Since Alex DID reply to my invite (see this post), I guess he was at least somewhat interested in doing it.

I was also thinking that maybe I could invite Alex to go out and eat pizza for his birthday. I'm not sure if he'll go for that since he's turned down all my other invites to actually go out and do something.

I don't know. Just some ideas that I'm thinking about. Let me know what you think or whatever.

Also, I posted two Myspace things earlier today. Apparently they are getting annoying now, and they make Mboys 200th post seem innocent or whatever was said in the comment on the last one.

45 Little Secrets

Okay, I'm not really sure I call these secrets. But whatever...

1. Who was your last txt from?
Alex

2. Where was your profile pic taken?
Myspace: In my room

Blogger: Created on my computer

3. Your relationship status?
single

Any offers to change that? :p

4. Have you ever lost a close friend?
yes

5. What is your current mood?
Okay

6. What's your brother's(') name(s)?
Hmmm. How about I give their middle names instead? Starting with the youngest and going up:

Richard, Joseph, Lincoln (his first name is weirder), Edward.

7. Sister's(') name(s)?
N/A

8. Where do you wish you were right now?
Not really anywhere in particular. At/on the ocean maybe?

9. Have a crazy side?.
hehe sometimes

10. Ever had a near death experience?
When I was born, and a few times after.

11. Something you do a lot?
procrastinate

12. Angry at anyone?
no

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
The person I like.

14. When was the last time you cried and why?
cant remember

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
I guess. idk

16. What do you think about when you are falling asleep?
Things that are going on

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mom

18. What is your favorite song?
Currently its Woke Up This Morning. But that's only because I've been watching The Sopranos a lot.

19. What are you doing right now?
this

20. Do you trust anyone right now?
Yeah

21. Where did you get the shirt your wearing?
Why do all the surveys ask this question?!?!

Chicago

22. Have you hugged someone in the past week?
no

23. Describe your life in two words
Roller coaster.

And that's not just because of Alex either btw.

24. Who are you thinking about at the moment?
Alex because I just typed his name lol

25. What should you be doing right now?
School work

26. What are you listening to right now?
The TV in Dad's room

27. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
Probably one of my female friends at my old school

28. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
dunno

29. What is your natural hair colour?
Dark brown

30. Who was the last person to make you laugh? Why?
I just answered this on the last survey!

Paulie from The Sopranos when he yells "FUCKIN QUEERS!" then throws a chair. It's on one of the vids I posted a few days ago.

31. Who was the last person to make you mad?
Matt :p

32. What animals do you have?
3 cats and 2 dogs

33. Is your hair curly or straight?
straight

34. Hugged the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
no

35. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
:D

36. Plans for the week?
None really

37. Are you happy with life right now?
Not when I think about it :\

38. Are you currently jealous?
no

39. What were you doing Friday night?
Probably nothing important.

40. Have you ever had your heart broken?
I guess

41. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Idk. Probably not

42. Is there anybody you're really disappointed with?
Sorta. But not really

43. Last person you saw?
Old hag outside

:D

44. How late did you stay up last night and why?
See last survey

45. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Never dated anyone period

Myspace Survey 5

1.If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
A------z or C------l. Depends on if I take Alex's of keep mine.

2. Were you happy when you woke up today?
I wouldn't say happy, but not sad/angry either. Neutral I guess

3. Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
No

4. What's a fact about the last guy who text messaged you?
Ummm...

His penis curves up.

:D

5. Want someone back in your life?
Yes

6. What are you excited for?
Nothing really

7. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Chicken Parmesan

8. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
sure do

9. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Probably Alex's annoying friend, but that would have been awhile ago.

10. what time is it right this second?
12:29:55 pm

11. Is there something you want to tell someone?
nah

12. What do you want right now, be honest:
To be done with school

13. I bet you miss somebody right now?
Not really

14. Do you tell people you're ok when you're really not?
yup

15. Why do you think so many people cheat?
because they are not happy? Idk

16. Tell me what's on your mind
The answers to these questions

17. Have you ever worn the opposte sex's clothing?
I used to try to walk around in Mom's high heels. I completely failed at it. Idk how she does it for 8+ hours a day, 180+ days a year.

(180 days is how many days are in our school year if you didnt know)

18. Where did you last talk to your number 1 [friend on Myspace]?
Last time I was at my old school. Way back on March 19th

19. When is your next road trip?
i have no idea, no big plans for traveling

20. Do you have someone of the opposite gender you can tell everything to?
No

21. What's your 3rd text say?
Sent or received?

Sent:
To Twitter: "Back home [from haircut]. My comp wont turn on :\"

Received:
From Matt: "What service provider do you have?"

22. Do you know anyone named Joshua?
yup

23. What were you doing at 10 pm Friday night?
How am I supposed to remember what I was doing at a specific time almost a week ago.

24. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes. I guess.

25. Have you ever in any way, been betrayed by someone you trust?
Maybe. Idk

26. How late did you stay up last night and why?
Around 3 am. First I was watching Quantum of Solace from 11 pm-1 am. Then I was chatting online and/or masturbating until around 3.

27. Are you picky about who you give your number to?
yea

28. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
N/A

29. Do you have a lot of posters on your wall?
Just one

30. Have you ever gotten a teddy bear from a girlfriend/boyfriend?
N/A

31. Have you ever kissed someone who was over 18?
N/A

32. Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?
hawaii

33. One of your ex's shows up randomly at your house, what would you do?
tell them they gotta leave. :)

34. Who is the last person that made you laugh?
Paulie from The Sopranos when he yells "FUCKIN QUEERS!" then throws a chair.

I crack up when I hear that. Just ask Matt :D

35. is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
yep.

36. Do you feel uncomfortable around the opposite gender? If so, why?
nope.

::EDITED:: I Told You So

Yesterday, I really didn't feel like going through with this whole pizza party thing cos I didn't feel good. Well, today I do want to do it.

My brother came by, so I figured this would be an opportunity to do it (who was all for the idea btw). I thought he would be staying for the game. Not totally sure if he was staying or not, I asked Alex if he wanted to come if we had it.

Guess what...

He hasn't answered me yet either way. I might have asked him in person, but he didn't ride the bus home today. So maybe he is doing something important. IDK

::EDIT::

Alex just sent back a reply (at 6 pm) that he doesn't think he can because he has practice.

It doesn't really matter anyway. Dad says he won't drive for 30 mins each way just for pizza.

HELLO!

I CAN DRIVE!!!!

But whatever. Dad's already started dinner.

Myspace Survey 4

Before you read this (if you even will), there is a quick little post that I made this morning.


Okay, let me thank Col for his comment on the last survey. He is right :)

Last Person You:

1. texted?
Matt

2. You were in the car with?
Dad


3. Last people you went to the mall with?
I can't remember the last time I was in the mall.


4. Last person you went to the movies with?
Mom, her BF and his son (who is much older than me btw)


5. You commented on Myspace Blogger?
Umm. I think the new AJ.


Only Answer With True Or False:
1. Kissed some one on your top friends (myspace)?
False

2. Been searched By Cops?
false


3. Been suspended?
False


4. Sat on a roof top?
false


5. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
true


6. Broken a bone?
false


7. Played a prank on someone?
true


8. Shot a real gun?
true


9. Donated Blood?
false

Answer:
1. Would you be rather serious or funny?
funny

2. Go to the beach or mountains?
beach

3. Die in a fire or die getting shot?
Well neither lol. I guess shot.


Answer Truthfully:
1. Sun or moon?
Sun

2. Winter or fall?
Fall


3. Left or right?
right


4. Black and white or colored?
Colored


5. Do you wanna get married?
No


In The Last Two Weeks Have You:
1. Kissed someone?
No

2. Been hugged by someone?
No


3. Been poked by someone?
Alex's sister pokes me everytime she sees me :)


4. Cried?
No


5. Gotten in a fist fight?
No


6. Told someone you loved them?
Mom. In a card

You're Going to Hell :p

Courage and Dan,

Just thought I'd let you two, and anyone else rooting for the team who opposes the Pens know that you are going straight to Hell.

:p

After sleeping on it, I don't think I'm going to initiate my plan. I'm not really feeling to well today, so who knows what I'll feel like tomorrow. Besides, I already know his answer will be a 'no.' That's just the way it always is.

I've Got an Idea

If I said this to Dad, he would say, "Oh dear."

Well, I have a plan.

WARNING: Some information below contains terminology related to the National Hockey League, and the sport of hockey. Continue at your own risk.

It's that time of year in the NHL. Playoff time. If you aren't familiar with the way the playoff games are organized, then I guess I'll try to explain it.

Two teams play each other in a best of seven series. The team that wins 4 games, wins the series and goes on to play in the next series against another team. The losing team is eliminated from the playoffs. Games are usually played every other day. For example, Monday - Game, Tuesday - off, Wednesday - Game, etc

Okay, that's the shortened version of my original explanation. :D

Currently, the Pittsburgh Penguins, or Pens, are battling the Washington Capitols, or just Caps. They have duked it out for 6 games now. Tonight, the Caps tied the series at 3 wins each. The next game will be played on Wednesday. This final game in the series will decide which team will go on in the Stanley Cup Playoffs, and which will be eliminated. As you can tell, it's going to be an especially tense game.

There is no better way to watch a tense game than with a room full of people and pizza right?

:D

Well, here's what I was thinking:

Why not order some a pizza from Pizza Hut and also some of their pasta stuff (which I LOVE)? All of this will feed a small group of people. Okay, so this is a little bit unusual thinking for me. But guess why I thought of it?

Figured it out yet?

Okay, I'll give you a hint. The key word starts with the letter "A" and ends with the letter "X." Yeah, get it now? ;)

Why not invite him over and have a little pizza party or whatever you want to call it? He loves watching hockey. He will be watching this game anyway. He loves pizza (especially from Pizza Hut). So why not combine the two on Wednesday in my living room (or maybe my bedroom ;) haha jk) in front of our TV?

Problems:

1. I think Alex likes watching the hockey game with his Dad. Not sure why.

We can't invite his Dad over cos he has a cat allergy. He probably wouldn't come anyway.

2. Alex probably has baseball practice that night, or maybe even a game. I don't really know. Practice or even a game is usually over half way through the hockey game. Maybe even sooner. Just depends on when it starts.

3. This problem is the most important one, and the same one that always occurs when I try to plan something involving him.

He will never let me know whether he is interested or not. And that is what really irritates me.

You know, he has never replied to my email or txts about the lawn mowing job I was offering. He hasn't even mentioned it in person.

Grrr

That's the one thing I really can't stand about him.

For instance, last year we planned (in advance) to do a camp out thing. Well I got the tent and everything out, but not set up. Somehow he failed to tell me that he couldn't do it because he had to get up early (which it really wasn't early at all) to go to New York and visit his cousin for the weekend. I repeatedly sent him texts, but he didn't respond to any of them until I sent a rather angry one the next morning. He then finally told me that he was going away for the weekend.

That whole episode really pissed me off...which is needless to say.

Anywho, this post is really getting off topic. I guess I'm just trying to illustrating how all my plans involving him fall through.

Ha, and don't get me started on the trip I was planning last summer to go to Kennywood (amusement part in Pittsburgh) for a day with Alex, Mom, and two brothers and their girlfriends.


Okay, the more I think about it the more I think this plan is going to fall through too... like always.

Not sure why I even came up with the idea in the first place.

I guess I can ask Alex tomorrow if he's interested, but I can guarantee he doesn't respond to my txt msg.




Wow. I just proofread this post. It went from a happy and upbeat tone in the beginning, to a gloomy one at the end.

Sorry about that.

Myspace Survey 3

Sorry Bob. It's a long one again. :p



How do you know the last male you texted?

He's the boy next door practically. The one I like, but also the one who is straight. My only close friend, yet he is far away.

Can you understand all that? lol

Were you single on your last birthday?

yes

Are you wearing a sports shirt ?

um no lol

How much longer until your birthday?

OMG! I just answered this on the last one. ~170 days.

How was your day today ?

For the most part, boring.

What was the last new movie you watched?

Titanic. lol

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

Umm not really.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Maybe

Who is the last person on your received calls list?

Dad

Where were you at 8 am this morning?

Awake, but still in bed.

So how are you?

Tired.

What are you doing tonight?

sleeping

Morning or Night person?

Both

Favorite number?

umm

Left or right handed?

Right

Any cool scars ?

I have 5 scars. I wouldn't call them cool tho. Two on my left leg (very near a "fragile" area ;) ). One right on my left dimple (very small). One on my left temple (clearly visible cos hair doesn't grow there, and my hair doesn't cover it much). One on the top of my head (hair covers it. I'm not even sure where it is.)

The first 4 mentioned were all from my surgery. The last one was from when I was little. I had a balloon which was filled with helium. I let go of it, and it (of course) floated up to the ceiling. My brother and I both wanted to get it. He got a chair and stood on it trying to reach the balloon. I also got on the chair. Somehow he slipped and (gross part coming up) one of his teeth went into my head. Went to the ER.

Do you talk a lot?

not unless i have something to talk about

Could you live without a computer?

Noooo

Do you drink enough water ?

No. I hardly ever drink pure water. Just whatever water is in what I do drink.

Do you wear shoes in your house or take 'em off?

both

What' s your favorite fruit ?

strawberries

What is your favorite place to visit ?

Hmmm thats a tough one.

Favorite Place visited most often: Gettysburg.

Favorite Place Rarely Visited: The ocean or Lake Erie. I love the water. :)

Are you photo genic ?

No way!

Do you dream in black in white or color ?

Color I think.

Do you want to live till 100 years ?

No thank you lol

When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?

on usually

Do you like to watch cartoons?

No. I hate them. I used to like them when I was younger, but I've matured past the point of cartoons now. Or any kids oriented show for that matter.

Are you short ?

Not really

Are you basically a happy person?

Usually

Are you tired ?

Right now I am...its 1:30am

=_=

Did you drink anything with caffeine today ?

No. Mug Rootbeer is caffeine free.

Do you get along with your parent(s) ?

most of the time

Tomorrow is?

Monday. Probably going to be another boring day. I think I gotta get my hair cut tomorrow tho.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone?

Not today :\

What did you do last night?

Nothing really

If you ended up in jail who would be the person in there with you?

lol idk

What was the last thing that inspired you?

hmmm...

Do you like the rain?

sometimes

Do you hate being alone?

don't mind it usually

Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?

no

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

From the museum in Chicago when they had a Titanic exhibit there a long time ago.

What happened at 3:00pm today?

Idk, but 11 minutes after 3, Alex asked for the skates.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?

I guess so

How are you?

Wasn't this already asked? I'M TIRED!

=_=

Are there any posters on your wall?

Yeah. It's a Gettysburg poster. Col. Chamberlain and the 20th Maine charging down Little Roundtop on July 2nd, 1863

Are you a mean person?

I can be

Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?

I'm named after the disciple Peter

Does anyone hate you?

Alex's annoying friend does for sure. Probably others too.

Do you know anyone whose name starts with an X?

no

Do you think relationships are even worth it?

Yes

Relationships or one night stands?

relationships

How many people of the opposite sex do you basically fully trust?

No one fully (ie no one I would come out to)

Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?

Hard to tell. Probably

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

Not in my PJ's

Plans for tomorrow?

school stuff. Haircut I think. Probably nothing else.

Do you usually tell people when your mad at them?

Sometimes

Honestly, how is your heart lately?

Hurting some days, up the next, down again before too long. In other words, it's on an emotional roller-coaster

Are you in a good mood right now?

A neutral one really. Too tired to be good or bad.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?

Never

Do you miss anyone?

very much

What is stressing you out most right now?

school

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

N/A

:(

Who was the last person you talked to on instant messenger?

Naturgesetz and Bob

Have you ever done something illegal with a family member?

Not that I can think of

Which is harder, telling someone you love them or that you don't?

Hmm...both lol

Who was the first person you talked to today?

Dad

How many windows are open on your computer?

Two

What are you doing after this?

bed

Do you like hugs?

Not really lol

Are you a loud person?

at times

Are you wearing underwear right now?

lol yeah

Did you go to sleep last night smiling?

Dont remember

Would you ever date your second top friend on Myspace?

*Checks top friends*

lol no. He's cute, but he's also a jock and very full of himself.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

I dont really know

What's your current problem?

Certain people. School stuff.

What are you excited for?

Nothing

Has someone ever made a promise and broke it?

Alex comes to mind. I wouldnt call them promises, but for this, they are. :)

Have you ever cried in front of a friend?

Don't think so

Are you cold, warm or just right at the moment?

Everything is warm except for my arms which are cold. lol

Last person to comment you?

Ashley on Myspace

Bob on here

Do you take any medication on a daily basis?

No

Have you ever faked sick?

yes lol

Do you want to get married?

Not really

Do you sleep on your stomach?

sometimes

Are you ticklish?

yes

Are you someone who worries too often?

I try not to

How many people have you liked so far this year?

Since the start of 2009? One

What are you doing right now?

this survey

Last person you had a phone conversation with?

mom

Last thing you had to drink?

I accidentally swallowed some mouth wash

How late did you stay up last night?

cant remember

What are you currently wearing?

Pjs

Whats to the right of you?

My cell phone next to me on my bed.

Where's the next place you will go for vacation?

I wish I knew

Do any of your friends live close by?

Within walking distance and up to 45 mins away

Anyone told you they loved you lately?

:(

Have you told anyone you miss them lately?

I might have. Cant remember for sure

Does water have a taste?

It tastes like water

lol

Favorite color(s)?

Red and orange

Whats going on later today?

sleep

Do you eat ranch dressing?

yes

Are your nails painted?

no

Is your room messy?

yes

Will you kiss anyone tonight?

Unfortunately, no

Do you eat a lot of chocolate?

no

Have plans for the weekend?

Ha I wish

When is your birthday?

Oct. 28

Are you tan?

No

Someone on your mind?

No

Do any of your friends have children?

nooooo

Did any particular thing brighten up your day today?

Not especially

Did your last outing involve the police?

never

Did you go outside for more than thirty minutes today?

Probably 30 mins total lol

How has the past week been for you?

Not too bad I guess.

Do you currently have a hickey?

NOO

Did you sleep alone last night?

No. Casper and/or Chessie were with me

Do you truly want someone dead?

Not really. ITs not worth it :)

Is there anywhere else you would rather be?

yes

Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name:

Penis :D

In the past seventy-two hours, have you been under the influence?

nope

Who is the first person in your contacts list in your phone?

Alex

The last?

Twitter lol

One thing you're looking forward to?

idk

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?

idk probably not

"My Penis Fell Off" - Funnies from The Sopranos

"I had this dream last night. My belly button was a Phillips head screw. And as I'm walking around, I'm screwing it. Once I unscrew it the whole way, my penis falls off. I pick it up in my hand and start running around looking for the guy who used to work on my Lincoln when I drove Lincolns. As I'm running, a bird swoops down and grabs my penis outta my hand and flies off."

-Tony Soprano


"Log off, that 'cookies' shit makes me nervous!"

-Tony Soprano

Tony Soprano: Maybe I should tap into my roots, too. My grandmother was half Indian.
Christopher Moltisanti: Get the fuck out of here.
Tony: No, it's true. She was in the Fakawee tribe.
Chris: Oh, yeah?
Tony: Yeah. When they used to get lost in the woods, they stopped and said "Where the Fakawee?"


Paulie "Walnuts" Gualtieri: Hey, Sil. You remember your first blowjob?
Silvio Dante: Oh, yeah.
Paulie: How long did it take for the guy to cum?

Christopher Moltisanti: Fear knocked on the door. Faith answered. There was no one there.


Janice Soprano: [as she's talking with Tony while sucking marrow out of a soup bone] God, I love marrow, just like Ma. Remember Ma with a bone? It sounded like half-price day at a liposuction clinic.

Great Video. Please Watch

Thanks to Seth (not Sethboyardee) for posting this video on Myspace.

I wish everyone could watch this and take what's said to heart.

Oops

See the last post before you read this one.



I was signing the cards I got today. I signed Mom's card, "Love, Peter."

Then I went to sign Alex card and started to write "Love" too.

:\

I wrote the "L" before I caught myself. It shouldn't be too hard to change the "L" to a "P." Not with my hand writing. lol

Cards and Flowers

As my Twitter says, Dad and I went to the store to get flowers and a card for Mother's Day. While we were there I decided I might as well get a card for Alex's birthday. I scanned them once we got back home. The scanner didn't go a good job, but at least you can read them.

Alex's card:


Front:

Inside:

Back:


Mom's card:

Front:

Inside:

Back:


I couldn't look at too many cards cos everybody and their sister was there looking also. So out of the hand full that I could look at, these ones were the funniest.

Also got two hanging baskets with flowers. Not sure what kind they are. They each have the same flower in them, just each is a different color. Red and purplish color (lavender?).

Mom also just called me and said she would be in church Sunday...which is a rare occurrence since Dad is there. They are weird like that.

OMG! I just realized that that means I won't be able to play pocket pool.

-_-

Alex's Birthday

Alex's birthday is coming up in about two weeks.

Last year I got him a card. It said something like, "I went out and bought you a computerless wire." (as opposed to a wireless computer) It had a piece of wire taped to it. I didn't put the money inside because I thought it would ruin the joke of the card since the bill would have covered up the wire. I tried to give him $20 (standard birthday money), but he wouldn't accept it lol.

But I don't think I'm gonna get him anything this year. Not even a card.

Am I being a sourpuss for saying that? lol

I bet his mother is going to buy him skates for his birthday. It's just a hunch I have for some reason. Oh well, then I can keep the ones here for myself... until my brother comes for the wheels someday...

It's a Losing Battle

I was reading this article on AOL just now. I actually didn't read the article, but skipped down to the comments. I've come to the conclusion that we (gay people) are fighting a seemingly losing battle against the gay haters out there.

I can't tell you how mad I am right now after reading those comments. The only comments I liked were the ones from me, and some other gay people.

*blood starts to boil*


::EDIT::

You're all right. It isn't a losing battle after all. I guess I wasn't really thinking about the big picture such as Maine allowing gay marriage. It might not be a losing battle, but it sure is going to be a long one.

Going Into More Detail...

On the last post, J asked why I live with Dad rather than Mom, and why am I cyber schooled.

I've given part of the answer to those before, but now I guess I'll go into more detail about it all.

A couple years ago, Dad had health problems relating to his heart and all that stuff. I don't pretend to understand all that stuff so I can't really give you any more info about it. Besides that all happened before I came on the scene anyway.

My brother who was currently still living with Dad at the time was getting ready to move out when all this happened. Dad became very concerned about living alone with these health problems. He is home 90% of the time since he doesn't really have to go anywhere for his job. He is also getting up there in his age (mid 60s). My brother decided to stay instead of moving out. That temporally solved the issue.

That summer (2007), I spent practically the whole time at Dad's (this was before he had his health probs). This was mainly because I was seeing Alex all the time. Whenever I had to leave and go back home (this was before I lived here remember), he would always ask when I was coming back. I already liked Alex since way before this time. But it was this summer that the feelings started getting a whole lot stronger. So much so that I was visiting Dad's a whole lot more than normal.

When school started, I went back to Dad's every holiday break. Even the little three day weekends. It was Christmas/New Years break (2007/08) that changed everything for me. It was the longest break of the school year, and the longest time I was able to do things with Alex since summer.

When it came time to go back home whenever break was about over, I didn't want to. I even started to cry. Now I hardly ever get emotional, so if I cry then you know something is seriously wrong.

These were my reasons for coming back here:

1. I never did anything with any of my friends outside of school. I went to a few birthday parties, but that was pretty much it as far as I can remember. I never saw any of them during the summer or anything like that.

2. I was also alone on the weekends and whenever there was a break that I didn't go to Dad's.

So I pretty much just sat at home in front of the TV most of the time.

3. I like where I live better. It's a nicer community, I have more contact with people here than I did before.

4. My brother was working 12 hour shifts so he wasn't with Dad much. I guess this reason is just an excuse that presented it self at the time and I took advantage of it. It was a viable reason then, but I guess I just used it (and still do) to hide probably the number one reason I came back here.

5. Alex is here. I had strong enough feeling for Alex that I decided to move back here for him.

When you look at it, I guess it was the worst decision I could have made. I had 76 people I considered a friend in my grade alone where I used to live. I dropped them all for 1.

Wow

I should become a case study of how love blinds you and makes you do stupid things.

Anyway, this is getting off the original topic of this post I think.

After I moved back with Dad, Mom also moved back to our city. So right now, there is no point to living with her rather than Dad because I'd still be here.


The other question (if you've forgotten) was why I'm cyber schooled.

This post is getting a bit long, so I'll just give you the short answer. It was something I wanted to try because there were more cons than pros about going back to the local school. Plus with my school, I get a lot more class options than with a regular "brick and mortar" school.

For instance, I have a lot of 3D design courses available to me. If you know me, than you know I love that stuff. So that is a huge advantage to me. There are also a lot of clubs available, as well as other things that a normal school can't offer for whatever reason.

When Mom looked at the cyber school and compared it to other cyber schools as well as the local school, she agreed that it was the best choice. Usually you don't get teachers who agree with cyber schools. She does.


So there's my answers.

This was kinda hard for me to write. A lot of things to think about for me. Lots of emotion too.

From my POV anyway.

Hope this wasn't too long. Apparently Bob doesn't like long posts :p

Another Myspace Survey

Okay, so I get a lack of comments on these posts but so what? I like doing them :p

If you could relive any one memory what would it be?
Hmmm... Probably some nights from last summer :D

Are you clumsy?
Haha sometimes.

If you had to listen to only three songs for the rest of your life, what would they be?
umm...

Last time someone told you they missed you?
Whenever this was posted.

Last time you did something nice for someone?
Ummm... Probably when I took Alex the skates yesterday.

If you were on death row, and they came to ask you what you wanted to eat, what would you request to be your last meal?
Chicken Parmesan

yum yum

Are you good at expressing how you feel towards others?
Not to that particular person lol.

Last text message?
To Alex: "I watched your baseball game...from my window with binoculars lol. Can see everything but home plate so it was hard to keep score."

Last phone call?
Mom. Not counting the call I made to my voicemail today.

Last person to leave you a myspace comment?
My best female friend from where I used to live. Ashley. Wondering when I was coming back out there.

"Peter baby when am I gonna see you again?"

"Since when did you start calling me baby?!? Probably right after Easter break" (opps I haven't gone yet :\)

"Since right now. You know I'm impulsive. Good I haven't seen you for awhile."

*Peter gets warm fuzzy feeling*

*remembers she's a girl*

:p

Last person you were thinking about?
Ashley lol

How did you get your last injury?
Ummm... I don't even remember my last injury lol.

Do you hate anyone?
I can name a few people...

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
Hehe My FEMALE (GROOOOOSSSSS) Spanish teacher.

Is there a person of the opposite sex that means a lot to you?
I guess

Who's in your profile picture with you?
No one

What are you doing tomorrow?
Probably nothing exciting or important. Just school stuff.

Ever broken a bone?
no

Last time you had pizza?
A few weeks ago

Is there something you need to tell someone?
Nothing really important that I can think of.

Last person you had a thing with would you ever go back to them?
I never had a thing with anyone. I don't think what Alex and I had last year counts.

How many days until your next birthday?
177

What have you eaten today?
Ravioli, crackers, 3 tacos

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
straight I guess

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
My brothers, the two sister in-laws, unborn nephew, Mom, and Grandma

Who was the first person you talked to today?
The dog...oh, person. Well then that would be Dad.

Are you currently sad about anything?
Not really

What does your last text in your inbox say?
From Alex: "Do you want to come over? (With the skates?)"

What color is the shirt you are wearing?
black

Where were you at noon yesterday?
Home.

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
Probably. She is my sister in-law after all.

Have you ever taken medications that were prescribed to someone else?
Don't think so

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
Who doesn't find the female species confusing?

:D

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
Yeah

Will you be in a relationship in four months?
HA! I wish.

Do you like to make the first move?
nooooo. lol

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment?
I've been trying that for awhile now.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
The SportsWorks in Pittsburgh when they had the Titanic exhibit there last summer.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past week?
No :(

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
The neighbors.

Did you go out or stay in last night?
Stayed in for the most part.

Looking back in time, did you ever waste your time on a certain boy or girl?
I've probably been wasting my time for the past year on a certain boy.

Do you know anyone who's pregnant?
My sister in-law

Name three things that you're addicted to:
Blogging, Movies, My model stuff...I'm not talking about model glue either lol.

Do you prefer to download your music or buy the cd?
I buy the CD, then take the music off of it and put it in my iTunes player on my computer. Then I put the CD in the car.

Name something that you can't live without?
My computer

Who was the last person you IMed with?
Torchy!

What are you looking forward to in the next five months?
Summer!

Name the last person who you watched a movie with?
Myself :(

Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?
no lol

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?
Hehehe. Do you really want to know?

What would you do if the earth was about to go into an ice age?
Ummm...idk

What's the nearest restaurant to you?
The local one in town

Have you ever been in the mountains when the moon and stars were up?
No

Does your neighbor have any pets?
YES! Too many of them! 11 annoying dogs and a number of cats.

How many people have you kissed this month?
none :(

What did your last text message say?
Didn't I already answer this?

What are you listening to right now?
The cat snoring lol